Sweet Temptationz

men!!u can never understand dem..baahh!!

2006-11-11T01:59:00.000-08:00

hey peeps..i juz hav tis naggin feelin for da past few days which i reali need to share wif someone..but i juz dunno who..

firstly, let me ask u tis question..HAV U EVER REALI LOVED SOMEONE SO MUCH TAT U WISH U CAN FORGET HIM FOREVER??well..i do..

very ironic question..but i guess if ur in my position now..u'll understand how i reali feel..i feel hurt now..deeply hurt..i've been cryin everydae without fail da past few days but no one..ABSOLUTELY NO ONE..understands my pain..

secondly, lemme ask u another question..HAV U EVER TRIED SO HARD TO PLEASE SOMEONE, MAKE HIM DA HAPPIEST MAN ON EARTH..BUT IN RETURN TAT SOMEONE DOES NOT APPRECIATE EVEN A SINGLE THING TAT U DO..EVEN SCOLDIN U EVERYDAY..USING WORDS TAT R EVEN TOO PAINFUL TO HEAR??again..i did..

well..fyi..i'm on block leave for tis whole week now..so i tot i'd try and put in sum extra effort into my "ailing" relationship..like da old ppl wld say.."masa tunang memang byk dugaan"..maybe we both might be a happier couple by end of tis wk..but its already da end of da week..and here i am cryin my heart's out wif no one..literally no one to turn to..

to cut a long story short..i spend da past 3 days tryin to spend quality time wif him..but i ended up bein closer to his family instead, which is a good thing lah..but our "ailing" relationship's takin a turn for da worse..cos someone was juz too busy at work or spendin time wif his frens..he wld onli be home at nite and by then..he'd fall asleep as soon as he hits da bed..leavin me all alone again..

u noe wat..i realised it makes no diff for me to be there..for him, it was like havin a maid to serve his meals..on the fan..and then i'm juz supposed to watch him fall asleep..no quality time..no nothings..not even a single word of appreciation..roughly out of the 72 hrs i was there..onli 3 hrs spent wif him, wif not much interaction..15 hrs wif both of us asleep..and the rest..spent the time WITHOUT HIM..wow..amazing..

i dun understand..are his frens much more impt than his TUNGGUL fiancee??didnt he spend enuff time at work wif dem??are they the ones he's gonna settle down wif??are they the ones who's gonna make him happy all his life and bear him kids??doesn't he noe tat its my ONLI one week block leave for tis few months??can't he juz sacrifice a few days of coming home earli frm werk to spend time with "someone called fiancee" since SHE have SACRIFICED spendin time wif her OWN FAMILY in order to spend time wif HIM and strengthen our relationship which is overwhelmed wif problems??

gosh..so many questions runnin thru my mind tat i wish he could answer..i really dun understand him..i'm breakin into pieces deep inside..and i dunno how much longer i can hold..i kept tellin myself to be patient and remain strong..but my patience runnin thin..i reali dun tink i can take tis any longer..

i'm hurting now with him..but i'd be hurting MORE without him..i luv him so much..but i can't tolerate the way he's treatin me..tats y i asked u ppl da first question..if onli u can forget the person u luv so much in order to save urself frm gettin hurt..cos y wld i wanna get hurt for SOMEONE WHO DOES NOT EVEN CARE ABT MY FEELINGS??true??

and the moral of the story is..i DUN understand men..or to put it generally..WOMEN WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND MAN..but if any women out there do..pls giv me some enlightenment will ya??

da woman who doesn't understand men..in happier times.. :(

best september of all!!

2006-10-02T00:14:00.000-07:00

here's a quickie entry..lemme juz summarise wat i've been up to lately when i was mia-ing frm ma blog..

1) i quitted frm markhan..yes..i FINALLY did..on da 8th SEPT 06 to be exact after 1 yr and 7 mths there..

2) i got ENGAGED!!serious..no joke..and to who else but my baby bucuk!!we FINALLY got engaged on 3rd SEPT 06 after more than 5 yrs bein together and it was on his 24th bdae to be exact..awww..so here's a happi belated bdae to my "newly minted" fiance bucuk and dun ya tink tat i'm ur BEST & BIGGEST (not literally lah..u noe how "mini" i am rite!!) bdae pressie ever baby??heh.. :p

3) HADY MIRZA was finally crowned SG idol on 25th SEPT 06!!absolute YAY-NESS after all da voting!!but then it means me & my dolls won't hav anythin to watch on weds & thurs frm now on..no more crazy votin for HADY..no more long, excited conversations during da shows wif yats doll..no more excited smses frm cuzzies..no "IMAGINARY" votes for awats doll to make anymore..banyak kau punya 30 eh!!hehe..in all..no more HADY to drool at now..at least we made his dream cum true huh dolls except for our "koyak" pockets..heh..but one thing won't stop i can assure u..us fightin over HADY!!well..wat to do..we gurls got a hell of an imagination..and i do hav tis urge to lick tat cute face of his!!:p (bucuk..pls note its only a fantasy..not real hor!!)

4) i went into a short "unemployment" period..or to put it in a nicer way..a short "holiday"..hehe..and i reali enjoyed da whole 3 wks of it!!i was literally practisin da MRT system..Makan..Rehat..Tido!!pure HEAVEN i tell u..but i had to cut my "holiday" short..cos i had an offer which was too good to be true!!

5) i got a very good work "lobang" frm an ex colleague of mine..so i try lah..da interview was tough..but i received a call on 28th SEPT 06 and to my utter amazement..i got da job!!so i'm officially employed again tomoro onwards..yay-ness!!

so one might be askin wat i'm doin up at 12 midnite when its ma first day at work tomoro??well firstly..i had tis sudden urge to update u ppl on all da WONDERFUL stuffs tat happened to me in SEPT 06..SEPT was definitely a GREAT month for me tis yr..and secondly..once i start work tomoro..i can FORESEE tat i'd be desertin my blog again for sum time..gotta focus on my new job hor!!hehe..

but there's good news for u ppl though..i'll be uploading more pics instead on my multiply..cos i tink it's less time consumin and i'm such a camwhore!!haha..for a start..i've uploaded sum pics for u ppl..and yes..it includes my ENGAGEMENT PICS!!sorry i didnt upload dem earlier or inform u ppl abt my engagement plans..cos i've been very "engaged" in da preparations..heh..not easy hor!!very time and energy consumin!!so i hope u ppl enjoy da fotos..i better go sleep now..tomolo early2 muz wake up for werk..SCB here i cumm!!

here's a sneak preview..

i'm officially "booked"!!hehe..

for more pics..pls go to - http://shiksbabydoll.multiply.com

lil miss clubberholic??

2006-08-24T18:56:00.000-07:00

i'm back..sori been soo overwhelmed wif work n all..n i do hav an upcoming surprise news which i'm gonna announce soon..maybe when the time is rite..well i cant blog much for da next few entries due to lack of time..but wat i can do is upload tons n tons of canwhorin pics!!i hope tt will make up for my lack of entries..hehe..so here goes..

as u all noe..lil old me is a clubberholic..my fave haunt wif my dolls is definitely MOS..sumtimes even twice a wk..tts how addicted we are..we soo cant get enuff of MOS..hehe..but we do occassionally go to devils & zouk..depends on occassion lah..

n tts wat we're plannin for 1 sept 06 actually..we're gonna hav an advance bdae celebration for bucuk..me, ma dolls n yol (bucuk's gay partner..can u believe tt yol specially took leave frm werk so tt we cld celebrate pai's bdae?? yats n me r gettin worried tt our bfs might leave us for each other..haha..but jokes aside..i tink its reali sweet of yol to do tt for bucuk..n i do reali appreciate bucuk finally bein all so comfortable wif ma frens now..i luv u for doin tt baby.. now i dun even hav to ask him along during our outings but bucuk will volunteer on his own..AMAZIN huh!!

enuff of ma story tellin..here's a lil peek to my collection of clubbin pics..

lil ms clubbaholic..

me n awat b4 mos..

wif two of my fave ppl..but oops..where's ma hand!!hehe..

awats bdae @ zouk..back in march 2006..

ajo..ashiks..achan @ zouk..

me n aza otw to zouk..

pole dancin part 2..

mother's dae 2006..

2006-07-22T13:06:00.000-07:00

next up..pics on mother's day last may..woahh..how fast time flies huh..n yeah..tis was ard da time dat i juz curled ma hair..a whole new diff hairstyle..straight or curly better??u ppl be da judge..but i dun deny tt i seriously miss ma long straight hair..dunno how long i'll keep tis hairstyle..lets juz wait n see..hard to maintain sumtimes..making me itch to rebond ma hair again..hehe..

back to mother's dae..me n ma siblings treated ma mummy n ma auntie n her lil kids to a feast @ lau pa sat..food heaven!!hehehe..so now left for u all to "feast" on da fotos onli lah..short & sweet..enjoy!!

me n ma fave lil brat..

ma bro..lil brat n me..

us siblings wif one extra lil fatty..

two mother's on mother's dae..n y does she have to be i every pic??!!

hungry ppl waitin for food!!

like mother..like daughter..

ma happi family..

2006-07-21T20:18:00.000-07:00

i'm back!!!hehehe..wat a long break i had huh..but it wasnt on purpose lah..my com is down again..it alwes neva fails to be down whenever i'm feelin a little rajin to blog..haiz..now hav to buat baik to my sis so she'd lend me her laptop..how pathetic huh..but i seriously hav soo many pics to put up but so lil time..cannot tahan uh!!

i reali appreciate u ppl still visitin my blog n taggin though its kinda goin thru a dry spell..so in order to reward ur "patience"..lemme try n squeeze as many updates n pics today orh..hehe..

BUT FIRST!!lemme juz set records straight..i'm no longer wif so-called "baybeh".. been few mths oready..luckily haven update any pics of him..hehhe..n i noe u guys are gonna be soo bored wif wat ur gonna hear nxt..i'm back wif bucuk AGAIN..but i seriously wanna make dis da very last..cos he means too much to me..i can't do w/o him..u noe i luv ya bucuk.. :)

ok..first up..ma bdae pics..backdate to 8 april 2006..can't upload all cos sum pics contains UNDESIRABLE PPL in it..whahah..so lets juz make do wif wat i CAN upload k..better than nothin.. :P

da pinkie bdae gurl!!..

ma most loved dolls!!

beloved ex-markhan ladies..

guys back frm ma sec sch daze..

family portrait..

dun pollute my food guys!!

da hardworkin "food preparers"..

mos outin again..

2006-05-13T16:49:00.000-07:00

u noe wat..i've got soo many pics to upload for u ppl to see..but soo lil time!!haizz..so while waitin for ma sis whose taking ages to shower..lemme juz squeeze one entry..backdate to sunday 30 april 2006..eve of labour day..3 of us dolls went to mos despite having juz been there 2 days ago..which is friday 28 april 06..haha..fri went wif baybeh n frens n ma dolls..but the outcome was not tt good due to sum misunderstandin..but nevertheless..baybeh n i managed to tok things out as usual..n da endin was fine..rite baybeh, yats n yol??hahaha..

as for sun..we dolls were in need of a gurls nite out..tot wanted to go reggae nite @ hrc..but wat da heck..dah kat luar mos masok jer lah..hehe..in da end baybeh went hrc..hahaa..well..it wasn't as pack as fris n suns..but the best thing is tt the bouncer dah recognise our face..he sd to me "wah u regular here ah"..haha..until the pink color security guys oso dah naik kenal..n havin seen us wif our bunch of guys all tis while..one of the abg security even asked vv.."mana pahlawan2 krg??".. hahah..pahlawan ehh!!smer kena tgl pat umah!!hehe..one of da cute abg security even asked ma name..but i was so shocked i juz walked off..but he's so cute!!he sd tt our entry chop was the wrg one..n asked for my passport..how cheeky..

i hav soo many more mos n zouk pics to upload..wif our "pahlawans" n all..haha..but one at a time k..now me wanna go bathe..gotta run sum errands wif mama..then off to mos tonite wif ma dolls..another gurls nite out..no guys allowed!!haha..thk god ma baybeh's so understandin..u dun say i enjoy tak ingat u tau!!wait tonite i beep u when i'm clubbin aights..i noe ma limits..i noe i'm attached.. :)

p.s: bucuk..i noe u read ma blog..i'm happi for u..the prev entry was for u..i hope she's treatin u better then i treat u..n for sum ppl..get tis..i'm happy for him..so dun go ard tellin others tt i'm sad he's attached!!

pole-dancin anyone??

a lil darker..a lil more kinky..

ma outfit for da day..

another shot at da mos toilet for our collection..

mos addicts..

ma hard partyin dolls..

ma shadow..

feels incomplete without her..

boogie-ing @ da dance floor..

2006-05-09T23:56:00.000-07:00

heya..dunno y but i juz feel like bloggin tonite..maybe i juz need an outlet to vent my frustrations..feelins or wateva it is..seriously..i dunno y i'm feelin like tis..how do i describe tis feelin..hmm..down..lost..disappointed..direction-less..i used to tink tt i WAS happy..tt i cld finally move on..but if i reali was..y on earth am i feelin tis way now..i'm so confused..

maybe i shldn't pretend to be so strong..cos tt i noe i'm not..deep inside..i'm reali the fragile girl tt is afraid of gettin hurt..n whenever i'm afraid of being hurt..i get defensive..i've got no choice cos i have to protect myself..sumtimes i wish tt everythin was as simple as it seems..everyone is perfect..but sadly..no one is..somethin which i hav learnt to accept in my 22 yrs of life..

or maybe..i shldn't have pretended to be fine wif everthin & eager to noe wat's happenin in "other ppl's" life now..when i noe i can neva take it..da fact tt i can never be ok wif wat i'd be hearin..but its too late now huh..i've heard..n i'm down..so super down..

but all i can say is tt i'm hapi for u..u finally moved on..i guess ur happier now with someone tt makes u happi n wont hurt u like how i did..i heard ur doin things tt u neva did when ur wif me..spendin all ur time n money on her..maybe u learnt frm da mistakes made wif me..gd for u..wish u all da best..n i wish tt i was at LEAST HALF as happy abt my life now as ur wif ur life..karma maybe..wat goes ard cums ard..

MOS: my latest addiction

2006-04-15T10:48:00.000-07:00

i'm back!! after like nearly 2 mths??whahaha..sorri lah..lil ol me hav been VERI VERI busy..seriously..my life hav been damn jam packed lately..wat wif werk.. relationships..my dolls..n definitely clubbin!!we've been clubbin so much tt i'm seldom home seh..rumah pon dah cam hotel..whahaha..but wat can i say..clubbin is my life now..if i dun club @ least once a wk..da withdrawal symptoms will cum..hahaha..

n b4 u ppl start askin urself.."hmmm..how cum bucuk lets her club so often??"..lemme juz clear things up here..i'm OFFICIALLY no longer wif bucuk now..u may be sayin "again??"..but i guess this is da last..cos i finally realised tt i dun like possesive bfs..i dun like to have my freedom restricted..n i DEFINITELY dun like bfs who make me CHOOSE btw my dolls & them..juz like wat i told bucuk b4 we broke up.."my dolls are more PERMANENT than u in my life"..call me selfish or wateva..but guys cum n go..my gurl frens are forever..tts reality..yes it bites bucuk..but u hav to accept tt i will never leave my dolls..i luv dem..so da veri much..

n now..i do have someone new in my life..met him @ zouk AFTER i broke off wif bucuk..n before u think he's sum random clubber guy tt i picked up frm clubs..nahh.. he's actualli one of my doll's fren..karl to be exact..we were celebratin her bdae @ zouk da other time..n she invited her guy frens..n tt's where i met him..ma onli ONE..ma baybeh.. :)

baybeh's real diff frm bucuk..in fact he's so much diff frm da typical guys out there..one in a million..once in a blue moon..hahaha.. ;p ma baybeh luvs to club too..he lets me club w/o him..he's soo damn understanding tt u wun believe it..he basically lets me do wateva i wanna do as long as i noe ma limits..ma baybeh makes me luff til my stomach hurts..he gives me butterflies in ma stomach..haha..he's mr versatile..a dancer..a singer all in one..he's ma "mr newscaster" wif his pembaca berita voice..soo sexy..haha..n da best of all..he can clique wif ma dolls juz fine..no problems at all..tts wat i need most..ma baybeh's da best!!

enuff of ma baybeh..back to my life..as u ppl noe..i've been clubbin so much wif ma dolls..its so addictive..we usually club @ our fave spot..MOS!!tt place's damn fun..we totally luv it..occasionally we do go to zouk or devils..but MOS still da best..juz went there last fri to celebrate my bdae..n guess wat..my prev ex..da one wif da kid..works @ MOS!!hahaha..wat a small world huh..but we're ok..alwes see him there whenever i go MOS..we still do smile or talk when we see each other..he's juz my past now..no doubt i had sum gd memories wif him..but i've moved on.. :)

k lah..i'm tired now..wanna sleep..karl lah call & wake me up @ 10 am in da mornin..i onli slept @ 6 plus seh juz now tokin to baybeh..tonite maybe gonna club..mos or devils..hmm..dunno..see lah baybeh n karl..i anythin goes..so i guess i better sleep before karl calls me again!!whahaha!!naaah..u noe i luv ya gurl!!if we wanna party tonite i better get sum shut eye first..heheh..so lemme juz leave u ppl wif sum of ma veri basi clubbin photos..ma bdae chalet photos hold first lah..cos i haven gotten all of it..will post dem up soon..take care ppl!!will be back..i hope soon..hahah. ;p

p.s: tis song..i'll stand by u (girls aloud) is specially for ma dolls..look @ da lyrics gurls..thx karl for da song..luv ya dolls muchies!!

yats & me on da way to MOS..

markhan ladies in da MOS pure room..

my virgin visit to MOS..

wif ma fave gurl..

ma partner in crime, vivi..

fana & me..

karl me & fana..

oohh..we luv da MOS toilet..

toilet cam whores..

orangey us in da orangey toilet..

MOS lover..

camwhorin @ da dancefloor..

tipsy party ppl..

pussycat dolls nite-out..

2006-02-26T20:03:00.000-08:00

well..u all noe how attached i am to my dolls rite..i dunno..its juz diff bein wif them..we cld crap all nite & luff non-stop @ each others' crappy jokes..esp wif our "muahahahaha" trademark laughter..n we noe one another soo super well..we cld practically read each other's mind without even tellin each other anythin.."tele-pathetic" - juz like wat iza wld say..hahaha..n we r all beginning to talk alike..esp our most used phrase "kalo kau pikir...." tis phrase can be added into so many of our conversations..veri da flexible..

n yeah..its veri seldom tt all of us can get to meet up @ one particular time..due to bfs restrictions..work..lack of cash..but when we do get to meet up..it'll DEFINITELY be a blast..juz like our old Markhan days..u all can juz imagine how kecoh our office used to be wif all of us under one roof..one of da main reasons y work USED TO BE fun..n all of us looked fwd to go to work every single day..but now wif all of dem gone..haizz..work is such a drag..wif onli me being stuck there..but thk god to markhan for bringin us dolls together..n wif our lil outings once in a while..we still managed to remain as close as ever..n here r sum of da pics taken during our prev outing..i noe..da photos a bit "basi"..my other dolls hav already updated way before me..but still it shows one thing..how much i luv my dolls.. :)

a collage of us..

gorgeous lil things..

picture perfect..

me & my "twin" yats..

iza-mat, fana & me..

happi bunch of dolls..

thks markhan for bringin us 2gether..

dolls filled wif poses..

one of my faves..

"powerpuff" dolls??

a reflection of wat markhan used to be..

i'm an emotional wreck!!

2006-01-16T04:54:00.001-08:00

ARGGGHH!!I REALLI CAN'T STAND THIS ANYMORE!!I DUN WAN TO TAKE TIS CRAP ANYMORE!!MY FEELINS ARE HURTIN SO BAD!!I HATE BEIN TREATED FOR GRANTED!!I HATE MISSIN TT SOMEONE!!I REALLI NEED TO LET TIS ALL OUT & NOT KEEP IT TO MYSELF ANYMORE!!

i kept tis for too long..i can't keep it in any longer..i had enuff of bein treated like shit..taken for granted..feelin unloved..u all might see me as one happy person wif no troubles..but lemme juz come clean..my luv life SUX big time since few mths ago..so far i've been keepin mum abt the new guy tt i was wif..well, i can't keep it no more..so here goes..

i was like da happiest woman on earth before this..wif someone who treats me da way i wan to be treated..pampers me..thinks tt time alwes passes too fast when i'm wif him..so eager to meet me everytime & wanna spend every single min together..whom i can talk to da whole nite & neva run out of anythin to talk abt..forever bein so sweet..whose not afraid to show how much he luvs me in front of everyone..one who can alwes make me luff wif his silly jokes & gestures..n we hav soo many things in common..

but all tt was gone..cos i was dumb enuff to be indecisive..not knowin who to choose among da two..i knew i cldn't continue bein wif two persons at da same time..it was a matter of time before the other finds out..u can't imagine how stressful it was bein left wif no choice..one was forcin me to leave da other..i seriously didnt noe how to leave when he didnt even do anythin wrg..but maybe we were juz not fated to be together..he caught me two timin..da worse case scenario happened..somethin which was even more drama then soap operas..onli my close frens noe..rite dolls??

n now..back wif bucuk..happy at the start..but now things are becoming like last time..him treatin me for granted..givin plenty of excuses when i ask him out..seldom callin me & alwes MIA..scoldin me bad words..real bad ones..dun u noe tt ur not supposed to be so vulgar to a lady??tsk..tsk..i esp hate it when he says tt i'm onli all looks but behavior like F**K..it hurts u noe..n it hurts real bad..if u tink i'm such a lousy gf..then y dun u juz go wif someone else than make my life a livin hell..if u wanna end it all..juz tell me straight..n not torture me like tis..

i've tried my very best to make u happy..but i realised even tt is never enuff for u..seriously..i've runned out of ways to improve tis relationship..ur not helpin at all by being all so unreasonable..u dun wan to go out wif me but u dun allow me to go out wif my gurls..u can return frm werk soo late..but i hav to go back straight home juz becos u dun like me stayin back @ werk??r u like afraid tt i might run off wif another despatch @ werk??pls lah..grow up man..

n to make things worse..the more bucuk treats me like crap..the more i miss tt other person..he wldn't treat me like tis..i cld list down a whole list of diffs btw both of u..

- he wldn't even raise his voice @ me but u scream ur lungs out @ me like nobody's biz..

- he wld fetch me frm werk almost everydae but u've NEVER EVER fetched me frm werk ever since i started like a yr ago..not even ONCE!!sad but TRUE..

- he wld wait patiently for me no matter how late i was..still greetin me wif a smile..but u..i'm forever greeted by a long black face..

- he wld alwes complain tt time passes too fast when i'm wif him..but wif u..u'll complain tt u wanna go home..i rmbr him dreading to look @ the time when we're together..n every moment together seemed precious..

- he luved givin me pecks on my forehead, my cheeks..but u..i had to giv them to u instead..i rmbr his cheekiness..alwes tryin to steal pecks on my forehead in front of my colleagues..u caught me off guard..tt was sweet..

- he wld mix ard wif my frens..alwes agreein to go out wif them..i still rmbr da time where he wanted to go johor..but when my frens asked me to join them @ ktv..he pleasantly gave in & sd tt we cld alwes go johor another dae since he cld see tt i wanted to be wif my frens..n da time tt my colleagues planned to eat bbq @ changi south..u happily went along wif da plan..

- he wld alwes say how much he misses me..n truly mean it..unlike u..sayin tt u miz me juz for the sake of sayin..i rmbr how we wld miss each other so much esp during weekends or holidaes where we dun meet..we wld constantly msg each other how much we missed each other..n how he wished i was wif him instead of HER..

i cld continue to go on & on..but tt wld make me miss him even more..so i'd rather not tink abt it so much..maybe he's still angry wif wat i did..i let him down badly..he used to tink tt i was diff frm other girls..tt i was special..like wat he used to say.."i was his dream girl"..but sadly..his "dream girl" messed up real bad..

maybe we were juz not fated to be together..he has his own complicated life while i hav mine..i do feel guilty bein da 3rd party..wat wif his adorable lil daughter n all..i juz felt bad..but tis are all onli memories left..i'll juz leave it to fate if i'm destined to be wif SOMEONE who takes me for granted n treats me like crap.. :(

"problem child"..

ari aye aji...

2006-01-14T11:22:00.000-08:00

lemme juz backtrack a bit to last tues..ari aye aji!!u noe lah me..a bit lost track in time..alwes blog way later than da actual event..so lemme juz make it short n sweet..

aniwae..this new yr..i'll juz try to blog more often as fana did comment tt i blog once a mth..haha..cum to think of it..kinda true..but i realli do appreciate da many ppl who visited my bloggy & tagged me till i hav no idea who to reply first.. whahahah..i'll reply frm now on k..n i'll also ensure tt u luvly ppl have da latest feeds on me every few days..insyaallah.. :)

n for those who dunno yet..my mum's gone for haji wif bucuk's mum..so yeah..both of us are officially mum-less for this mth..so it means me = doin hsework!!argghh..wat a nightmare..n i can't cook for nuts..so now i'm reali dependant on take-aways..n yes..i'm so thankful to da creators of microwave & instant noodles..my saviour.. hahah..n bucuk does come over some times..to help me fry stuffs to eat..cos i oso can't fry for nuts!!so many frozen stuffs in da fridge..but nobody to fry..cum to think of it..maybe i juz have a phobia of stoves..muz be the fire..i'll definitely make da "best" hsewife on earth..one who can't cook!!haha!!

my sis does lend me a helpin hand too..but harapkan my bro..forget it!!10 yrs later oso not done..hahah..his room..like got hurricane!!haizz..dunno wat to say..so this yr..ari aye aji was basically da 3 of us siblings..without mummy..i miss her badly u noe..but wat to do..

us siblings went jln raya to the elder relatives hses wif our aunts n uncles n cuzzies..onli few hses..but da food was GOOD!!n definitely there was plenty of cam whoring..me,my sis n our 2 best cuzzies as usual..it was fun..n since we finished visting kinda early..lil ol me singgah-ed to bucuk's hse since all his relatives are there..this yr's celebration rather low key lah..without our mummies..missin her..juz hav to countdown till she returns..i pray hard tt she's fine..

as usual, pics are a staple of my entries..tts da best part rite!!so here..i leave u ppl wif pics..n more pics.. :)

cam whorin queen..

picture perfect..

hmmphhhhh..

me n my fave gurl..

da four mak neneks..

mak neneks who luv to camwhore..

happy bunch of mak neneks..

sad bunch of mak neneks..

crazy bunch of mak neneks..

a lil mix of everythin..

our version of "see no evil..say no evil..hear no evil"..

my fave boy..cuteness!!

i miss my "pussycat dolls"!!

2005-12-30T08:56:00.000-08:00

yes yats..here i am updatin..well..latest update as @ 30/12/05..yet another one of our "pussycat dolls" down..saved frm all e physical, mental, emotional & psychological torture anyone cld ever imagine..so do ur maths ppl..how many dolls left now?duh..ONE!!n tt UNLUCKY one has to be me..one can never imagine how down i felt when yats tendered last mon & was allowed to leave on da same dae w/o servin notice!!tt feelin sux..seems like even wateva little hope i had left to continue werkin is gone..kaput..FINITO!!n da reasons to me feelin like da hopeless lil thingy tt i am now r:

1) first of all..my bf @ tt time was sacked..gone..n so was our relationship soon after..tt turned me into an emotional wreck & an unmotivated employee..with his "departure", part of the reason i stayed on werkin there was gone..but i stayed on..since there was still half of our "pussycat dolls" left..

2) one by one by dolls are gone..first, my darlin "adek" kar..nxt iza..then joey..followed by chan..and quite recently yats..we were supposed to tahan & leave 2gether yats but i understand how u feel..it sux when he pushes u to the core huh..we're in da same boat..juz pendin my turn..dunno when..

3) OVERWORKED but UNDER-APPRECIATED..tt explains pretty much everythin huh..

4) da new ppl are so totally DIFF frm da old..it's so hostile now..i miss da old werkin environment where everyone helped n supported each other..n everyone looked fwd to go to werk..n da old batch was Fun WIF A CAPITAL F..wif my dolls..shikin mgr..farhana..winnie..we did lots of CRAZY stuffs together..u noe i noe we noe but no one else noes!!hehe..miss u guys soo badly!!

haizz..nothin much i can do now but to tahan rite..yes yats..i can't let them win their chicken rice..to think tt he bet them chicken rice tt i wld leave soon since yaty already left..there's soo much backstabbers n hypocrites now..i dun feel safe anymore..esp when all my dolls r gone..

it did dawn on me tt whenever i need help @ werk or need someone to mengadu nasib or complain to now..i look ard n to my dismay..there's no one tt i can turn to..i realised how ALONE & LOST i am rite now..to think tt few mths back i even had to stop @ soo many tables to repeat da SAME story or gossip to each n everyone of my dolls..i miss them bad!!

but at least there's one consolation..joey's new werkplace is kinda near so we meet up for lunch everydae..its fun eatin lunch wif her as we get to reminisce on the gd old times we had & hav a gd luff..n its not tt bad oso cos i still meet up wif my dolls quite often..be it lepakin @ town or chattin wif them on the fone or msn pon jadik..n gurls..u all MUZ come down for another "celebratory" dinner if i leave tt place ok..PROMISE?? :)

ok lah..tt's all for now..yats..i oredy updated panjang berjela..n fyi ppl..do read her blog entry in multiply on 30/12..soo touching!!

http://tyemily.multiply.com/journal

n here's sum remembrance of the fun memories we dolls had..to think tt tt place brought us dolls together & tt same place tore us apart..super-sadness..

babes in white..

we alwes had each other..

she understood me well..

she alwes gav sound advice..

she was my partner in crime..

we "spoil" each other..

once we were da ocbc gurlz..

i miss this team of mine..

we had "slumber party" during office hrs..

n she "vandalised" my pillow wif her initials..

we had lots of fun 2gether..

playin wif our "toys"..

goofin ard durin office hrs..

we even had a pinkie dae..

n we esp luv hangin out under our office..after 6pm!! :P

oh how i miss my "pussycat dolls"!!

markhan's pussycat dollz..

2005-12-10T23:31:00.000-08:00

i'm back again..after a super long holidae frm the bloggin world..n no holidae @ all frm the werkin world..can u juz feel my pain..feel like i've been werking 24-7..n to make it worse..most of my gurlfrens hav left the company..except for me & yats only..da 2 survivors..for now lah..dunno how long we can survive there..so lemme juz squeeze a short entry but wif many2 pics to make up for my absence..u ppl cfm sukaaaa kan!!hehe..

n last sat..we met up..us re-united for a day of camwhoring..we oso gav support to our gurlfren joey who was involved in some toni & guys hairshow..she was gorgeous man!!hehe..n most of the time..we were juz doin wat we do best..camwhoring!!

n juz a quick update..i'm back wif bucuk..no longer wif da other guy..well..wat can i say..things juz dun werk out..a valuable lesson i learned..dun ever be the 3rd party..no matter how much u tink u can tolerate havin to share someone wif someone else..it juz sux..yes..u might be very happy wif him..but other than tat..no freedom..heart pain @ times..n lots of miscommunications..well..i shld juz be thankful tt he's no longer werkin as a despatch @ my werk place..or things wld juz be super awkward..let's juz say..it was fun when it lasted..we had some realli gd memories together even though my werk performance was affected..but nonetheless..no more office affairs for me!!

and as for bucuk..i realli hav to giv him credit for luving me for my good & bad points.for accepting all the shit i did..for forgivin & forgettin..i noe i did wrong my dear..i noe u deserve to be treated better..i promise u i'll never ever leave again..i'll make u da happiest man alive..luv u baby..

lastly..i bought a new fone ppl..my dream fone..it was luv @ first sight when i saw it on the website..n thx to my dear bucuk who searched soo many diff places for the fone..i finally get to be one of the first few to use the fone..to da envy of many..haha..it was hard to find..either no stock or haven launched in sg yet..but the end result..super fantabulous!!!

me & my pinkie moto..

my separated @ birth sista..

fork licking gooood..

kar & me..

da mentelz..

i'm gonna kill u!!

markhan's angels..

camwhores..

we dun give a damn..

camwhoring..

n more camwhoring..

camwhoring wif a xmas tree..

camwhoring wif a huge banana..

camwhoring in da lift..

me & joey..

markhan's "pussycat dolls" re-united..

mOmO NitEZ..

2005-10-08T18:09:00.000-07:00

two fridays ago was our momo nite.. boss booked da vip area for all of us markhan ladies..it was a blast..i hav to say it again..i totally LURVE momo!!u ppl who haven been there..it's a must to try it out..serious..n tt's da place where things started heatin up btw me n my new luv..all thx to momo.. :p

n yes, as sum of u hav already known..thx to my darlin cuzzin who doesn't noe how to keep her mouth shut..heheh..i'm officially no longer wif bucuk..n yes..i'm wif someone new..but i'd rather not reveal his identity now..due to certain rather complicated reasons..when the time is right..who noes..i might juz reveal his pic right here..hehe..but all i can tell u ppl now is tt i'm veri happy wif him..tt's all for now..dun wan to reveal much.. :)

as for bucuk..i dunno how i realli feel for him now..he seems very confused too..one moment maki2 me..another moment tok nicely to me..haizz..guys..u can never understand dem..last sat he waited under my blk till 3am but i wasnt home..kept on callin me..my mum sd he was teary eyed n all..i feel bad..i feel guilty..but i really cldn't rush back to meet him tt nite..he onli went home when my mum pujuk him too..i feel like i really let him down..esp tis time nak dekat raya..our baju sepasang semer dah siap..i dunno lah..dun wan to think abt it..maybe it's all fated..maybe we juz not fated to be together..

all i can say is tat..i wish him all the best in life..we went thru a lot..but i juz cldn't accept how he's been taking me for granted lately..it hurts when he ungkits the past..esp. when he said i'm the one who tergila2 kan him..tat i alwes giv him problems..tt i'm all looks but perangai cam sial..n he's happier without me n all..tt he'd rather go wif a fat n ugly girl than be wif me..all those things he said really hurt me..real deep..n now i'm gone..i hope he's happier.. :(

enuff of all the sadness..lemme juz leave u ppl wif some photos on our momo nite..pure fun..take care aights..

nicely made up..

all set n ready to go..

a lil pose for memories sake..

markhan ladies @ club momo..

in da club..

us..

juz a lil tipsy..

momo lovers..

farewell chalet..

2005-09-17T20:18:00.000-07:00

well..lemme juz blog a little since i'm in da mood..as i hav earlier mentioned, there was da farewell chalet tt we had for our ex manager like 1 mth back..n now.. another 2 staffs are leavin too..haizz..how saddening..n it's all of a sudden..but wat to do..werkin in a law firm is really fast paced & stressful i hav to admit..but i luv my job..can't imagine werkin somewhere else..so lemme juz leave u ppl wif sum of da pics taken at da chalet wif my beloved colleagues..n oso a new song.."this can't be right"..kinda explains how i'm feelin now.. :)

da lepak queenzz..

lepak da "nyonya jual ikan kat pasar" style..

da markhan ladies..

fishball factory workers..

will miss dem both..haizz..

me n my "mat"..

unstoppable camera whores..

we will mizz her too..

gonna be "MISS LONELY" for a wk..

2005-09-11T23:13:00.000-07:00

ppl!!i'm finally back..n as expected..i will be citing "werk commitments" as my "VALID" excuse for my disappearance again..believe it or not..i've been realli tied down wif werk the past few wks..huge responsibilty cums wif huge sacrifices..but wat to do..i luv my job..n i wanna build a rewarding career out of it..so therefore..i can onli blog when i'm very free..like now..tats wat i luv abt weekends..freedom!!kalau nak blog on weekdays..i can juz forget abt it..wait long long oso tak dapat..i cum back frm werk onli off to dreamland..hahah..

okok..enuff of my yakkin..the reason i blog sure must hav sumthin tat i wanna tell u guys..so here goes..i'll officially be MISS LONELY for the whole wk startin besok..cos my darlin boo boo (a new name for bucuk for those who's tinkin who the hell is tat)is goin to reservist..how the very saddenin is tat..i tink i'd be luv sick for the whole wk..it's been yrs since we've been apart for tat long..the last was when he was in ns..which was like eons ago..hahah..old lah my boo boo..23 oredy..

btw..boo boo's still tryin to adjust to his new name..he doesnt seem to like it..haha..n to get back at me..he calls me baba..ewww!!but i dun care..i tink boo boo's a kiut name..i'm sick of callin him bucuk anywes..hahaa..

n yesh..lemme juz re-cap on the happenings in my life while i was mia-ing frm da bloggin world..there was my manager's farewell chalet..boo boo's 23rd bdae chalet..lepak-ing times wif my colleagues at werk where we took tons of merepek pics..i promise i'll update on all those one at a time cos i've got tons of new fotos for u ppl to feast on..except for boo boo's bdae chalet..cos my digicam buat hal..heheh..

but as for today..i'll onli blog to tell my beloved boo boo how much i'll miss him tis wk..i'll be so lonelyyyyyyy..but thk god i hav wonderful colleagues at werk who'll spend time wif me..rite??hahah..(p.s: yats, ur booked by me for da whole wk..hahah..until my boo boo cums back then u can go back to ur rokoks..) :p hope this wk pasts real fast..so tt boo boo will be back in my arms soon..cant' wait..

also..my boss will be takin us clubbin this comin fri.. most probably to momo..i do hope its club momo cos the the last time i went there last mth..it was real fun..da songs played were so nice!!i cld dance da whole nite..but i'm still pending permission frm my boo boo..cos the last time i went without him knowin..we broke up..so now tt we're back together..i learnt my lesson..kalau nak club mintak permission dulu..cos boo boo means a lot more to me than clubbin..so boo boo cyg intan payung..pls lemme go..u can go too..pretty puhleasee??????

i will miss boo boo like crazy..

lil miss lonely..

Fun wif a capital F...

2005-06-19T22:41:00.000-07:00

as u ppl noe..lil ol me has been so totally absorbed wif werk..i spend more time in da office than at home..sumtimes it gets so bad tt my colleagues n i tink it'll be more convenient if we juz sleepover in the office..hahah..so lemme juz update u ppl on wat i've been up to at werk..

n yeahh..contrary to popular belief tat werk is such a chore..tat does not werk for me..cos lucky for me..werk is Fun wif a capital F..as i'm blessed wif wonderful colleagues n a job which i luv soo much..i hav to thk my lucky stars for tat..n to show how much i enjoy time at werk spent wif my colleagues..here are my evidence...

markhan babies..

a bunch of hungri ppl..

invisible fwens.. :P

harbans & tengtong..

wrg toilet??

porn anyone??

caught off guard by my "stalker".. :P

da pinkies..

me n my darlin "mat".. :P

unidentical triplets??

sungguh mentel..

powerpuff girls??

finally..a wedding in my family...

2005-06-19T22:16:00.000-07:00

b4 i start yakkin on & on..apologies first for again leavin my poor blog in the lurch..the reason is obvious..werk..werk & more werk..i do hope u ppl understand..n as a way of makin it up to u ppl..here it is..a DOUBLE ENTRY SPECIAL!!cos lil ol me can foresee i wun hav da time to blog again da nxt few daes..haizz..wat to do..

first entry of da dae..i went to my elder cuzzin's wedding last sun..it's like the first weddin in my family in a freakin LONG time..hahaha..like i sd in my earlier entry..both sides of my family are practically WEDDING-LESS..how da veri kecian rite..hehehe..n noo..not tat ppl in my family all da veri tak laku or wat..its juz tat for my mum's side..da oldest is like 25 onli..n tat includes my bro who neva seems to grow up..so how to kahwin like tat..haiizz..as for my dad's side..my oldest aunt nyer kids semer dah kahwin..dah ber-anak pon.. :P

so my cuzzin got married last wk..n if u do find her new husband's face a tad bit familiar..tats cos his bro is tat s'pore idol contestant..haizad imran..tat gd lookin nurse lah..n yeshhh..i DID saw him real life..cos he send da bro over the bride's side wat..n yeshhh..for those who's dyin to noe..he's real gd lookin in real life too..but dunno lah..there's juz somethin gay abt him..hehehe..no offence..juz a vibe tat i got.. :P

n another new addition to my family..so bucuk..u nyer turn biler?? ;P

n they live happily ever after..

us wif da happi couple..

21st bDaE.. (PaRt II)

2005-05-15T20:53:00.000-07:00

okok..i shall juz end tis neva ending waiting game & update NOW..heck wif da adobe editing..cos its takin my bro damn long juz to install da software back into my com..sO forgive me if da quality of da fotos not dat gd..if da faces are not tat clear..or da UNSKILLED EDITIN makes us look distorted..cos da actual size of da pics cant even fit into my blog..i'll juz have to settle for this lah..promise once my adobe is back..my pics will be fine.. :)

as promised..this is part 2 of my 21st bdae entry..more pics..more of my guests..n da nxt upcomin entry will be one wif pics of pressies frm da wonderful ppl who came to my party..i oso wanna thk all u wonderful ppl for visitin n constantly taggin..i reali totally appreciate it..u ppl are the ULTIMATE SWEETEST..not tat i dun wan to update or reply lah..onli tat werk takes up most of my energy already..haha..do continue to flood me wif ur tags k..i'll try n reply asap..but as for now..for those who hav been "DEMANDING" for an update..here goess..hope it satisfies ur "HUNGER" k.. :P

da one & onli bdae gurl..

my first guests..

wat's da joke ppl??

da result of havin too many cameras..confusion..

one big happi family..

sec skool mates..

colleagues & temp staffs frm markhan..

cuzzies..

proud owner of da cake..

i do hope my wish come true..

my fave gurlfrens frm sec sch..

i sure do miss sec sch..:)

bucuk puttin on da anklet for his lil princess..

da last guests..

21st BdAe!! (part I)

2005-04-24T14:19:00.000-07:00

much awaited entry in my short bloggin history??yeapzz..i guess so..or maybe..DEFINITELY so..i noe i promised to blog tis earlier..n my bdae was like 2 wks ago..but u noe lah how werking life is..u balik only so tired u'll hav no mood to do anythin else but SLEEP!!hehe..so now lemme juz go straight to my 21st bdae party..

date: 9/4/05
place: costa sands east coast, chalet f13

well, all in all..my 21st bdae party's da best i ever had in my 21 yrs of life..(cos so far i onli made 3 wat!!haha)..my sec skool mates..poly frens..my colleagues..my whole family..baby's family..baby's frens..were all there to celebrate da this significant occassion wif me..

one highlight of my party was my cake..i tell u..it was da most PERFECT cake tt i cld ever hav in my whole life..to put it in simpler words..I SIMPLY LUV MY CAKE!!simply delicious n all..u noe how it tasted like..KIINDER BUENO choc!!veri da mouth waterin!!hahah..enuff enuff of gushin abt my cake..i'll let da pics do da talking instead..

n yeaps..i recd many2 presents..all were really nice..but da best of it will be..like i said earlier..i can strike off somethin in my wishlist..a GOLD ANKLET!!i was like super esctatic when i got it..u wana noe frm who kan kan kan??who else..but my one & onli beloved BUCUK!! how da veri da sweet huh..onli tat now he's veri da broke lah..anywae..specially for u ppl..i will be havin a SPECIAL ENTRY soon..for all my presents..then u all can get to see da presents i got puas2 k..hehe..

but da onli regret i hav abt my party is tat i didnt get to eat much of da food there..veri da kesiankan..maklumlah..bdae gerl..veri da bz muz layan all my guests..ader sampai tak terlayan..sori lah for those who came but i was too bz to spend time wif u all..

n i wana thk one veri impt person who help me make da party a success..my darlin bucuk..i tell u all..tis man here ahh..was almost like a one man show..tlg angkat barang..prepare da chalet for guests..bbq da food DA FOOD DA WHOLE NITE for my guests..buat air..kemas chalet..entertain his frens..he was a SUPERB ONE MAN SHOW tt nite..veri da rajin n effective..i felt soo lucky to hav someone like him as my bf..n frm tt chalet experience..i tink even after we get married..he wld be da one who does all the hse chores..cos i..u noe lah..veri da super lazy..everythin muz "wait..wait"..but in da end neva do..hahaha..but nevertheless..I LUV U MY DEAREST BABY BUCUK!!u were magnificient tt dae!!

ok lah..i oso dah penat type ni..tis is da time where i shld let my pics do da tokin lak..n ppl..tis will not be all da pics..cos too many..i'll split tis bdae entry into 3 parts..n tis is only PART 1..do stay tuned for da nxt 2 parts k!!n i promise..seriously promise..it wun take me as 2 wks to blog..hehe..enjoy!!

p.s: pics here are taken frm mars cam..pics frm my cam are in da nxt entry..so stay tuned!!

foods galore!!(wif my dearest "BBQ man" in da backgrd)

my pretty n not-so-lil bdae cake..

i wish..i wish..

my precious half-eaten cake.. :(

my beloved family..

n beloved family-in-law..hehe..

me wif da one n onli man in my life..

mar & me..

my sec skool mates..miz dem all..

one of da earliest but latest to leave..

wan more pics??stay tuned ok..hehe..

my shortest entry ever..

2005-04-17T23:13:00.000-07:00

yes..i promise i'll update..PROMISE..in a few days time maybe..i hope..i noe i noe..my bdae's over since more than a wk ago..but still no sign of any updates yet..batang idong pon takde..well..juz so u ppl noe..last weekend was my chalet..tis weekend was my cuzzin's..n nxt weekend my fren's chalet..so..3 weekends straight of chalets for me..exhaustin??yeaps..veri da EXHAUSTING!!

i'll try my very best to squeeze in an entry maybe tomolo..many2 pics for u all to see u noe..n i noe..u all sure wana see wat presents i got rite??n wat cake i had??heheh..juz for ur info..my cake was PERFECT..da BEST cake ever in my 21 yrs of life..my presents were FABULOUS!!a veri big clue for u ppl..i can now strike off ONE item in my wishlist..hehehe..veri da obvious??

ok lah..i gotta go dreamland soon..tomolo mornin2 gotta werk..if onli tis was last wk..i wld be on leave tomolo..hahah..dream on shikin..how can take leave every wk..wish longer k..so nitez ppl..juz stay tuned for my bdae updates..a veri LOONG entry it will be..filled wif pics..promise.. :)

key to freedom??

2005-04-08T23:20:00.000-07:00

today will be one of da most memorable day in my life history..its my last dae of bein 20..i'm gonna turn 21 in less than an hr..how scary is tat..part of me is dreading to turn 21..the age where i "officially" get my key to freedom..not tat i had no freedom b4 tis..i had lots of it since i was in sec skool..thx to my parents who were reali lenient..i count myself lucky for tat..but another part of me is all excited..cos tomolo i might be havin da best bdae party in my whole life..most memorable one i hope..

i've been plannin for tomolo for quite some time..kiasuism is deep in me..time flies so fast..n in a few hrs..da day tt i have been waiting for will finally arrive..so much earlier than i hoped it wld be..goshh..i'm filled wif mix feelings..i hav to admit tt i'm nervous abt da future n things to come..turnin 21 wld be a whole new beginnin for me..filled wif responsibilities n all..damn..i'd be leading da life of an adult soon..how unexciting..to tell u da truth..i'm actually scared of growin old..if only i cld remain 18..tt wld be perfect..

maybe i shld not be so gloomy..cheer up n look on da brighter side..i am now of the legal age..i can go clubbin anywhere i wan..n maybe i cld even look fwd to my future wif bucuk..temptin..but somehow..i'd rather remain a teenager leadin a stress free life..if only i cld turn back time..but all i can now is treasure da last moments of me bein 20..not tt turnin 20 was fun..i guess it's the worst bdae of my life so far..cos i only stayed home n quarrelled wif bucuk..n missed my dad like hell.

tokin abt my dad..as i turn 21 tomolo..it wld be exactly 2 yrs tt my dad passed away..da pain is not tt strong..but sad to say..every time i turn a yr older..part of me will be mourning for my dad's loss..i bet no one wld ever wana be in my position huh..celebratin ur bdae on ur dad's death anniversary..to tell u da truth..i miss him..i miss him more than ever..if only he was here to see his lil girl turn 21..tat wld be perfect..but sadly..its impossible..gosh..i soo badly wan him back..

enuff of my dad b4 i drown myself in tears..i do hope his fine..semoga allah mencucuri roh nya..do pray for him ya ppl..n i'd better go prepare stuffs for my chalet tomolo..i'll be away for few days..stayin in my temporary home @ costa sands east coast..hehe..i'm lookin fwd to it actuali..my cake..the food..my family n frens there..it wld be fun..i hope its a blast..

so lemme juz bid goodbye to 20..n welcome da arrival of 21..yeahh..i'm turnin old..but at least i look young..haha..dats my onli advantage..heheh..so ppl..i do hope i'll be back wif lots of updates n pics of my bdae by nxt wk..stay tune for my bdae entry k..tc ppl..

p.s: for my dearest frens who are comin tomolo..a gentle reminder..i'm allergic to silver..so dun bother buyin me any..i dun mind gold though..hahah.. :P

weddins..weddins..n more weddins!!

2005-03-27T19:16:00.000-08:00

ppl..ppl..guess wat i did yesterdae which i HAVEN been doin for a veryy looonngg timmee..few yrs to be exact i tink..haha..lil ol me went to a WEDDING!!u all might be wondering y somethin so COMMON might seem so RARE for me..n NOO..b4 any of u jump to conclusions..its not tat no one wld invite me to their wedding..or tat none of my relatives are gettin married..the reason is simply tat i'm juz PLAIN LAZY to attend weddings..heheh..

but yesterdae i was in my "rajin" mood actualli..n furthermore it was my so-called sepupu's wedding..not tat we're close n all..i doubt we hav ever talked b4..but wat da heck..since all my cuzzins are goin..n besides da fact tat i was badly in need of good food..hehe..i juz went lah..

well..it was ok lah..stayed there til da end of da wedding ard 9+..we basically were dying of boredom as there was nothin to do there..besides sittin..eatin & gossipin..n yes..my lil tummy was filled to da brim..as i was constantly sumbat-ing all da deeliciouss kuihs..n my poor little bladder reali felt like burstin!!n u all might ask y wld i torture my bladder like tat n not juz simply go n pee..u wana noe y ah??cos the portable toilet STINKED like mad n i cldn't even bring myself to stay in it for more than a sec..haizz..so no choice lah..tahhann!!

luckily my 2 fellow mak nenek cuzzins were there to accompany me thru out da miserable wedding..at least we got to gossip all we want..hahaha!!btw..thx cuzzy julie n farah..thx da veri many2 for stayin there wif me..or else i wld hav juz died of boredom..hehehe..

but i'd hav to admit lah..da startin was kinda ok..when my whole family sat @ one table n talked..we were actuali tokin abt who wld be the first in my family to get married..langkah bendul & all tat lah..cuzzy julie n lil ol me were actualli plannin wat berkat to giv for our wedding!!hahah..sempat berangan seh we both!!hahah..but seriously..goin to weddings does make u feel like gettin married..dun u all agree??i can soo imagine tat it was my wedding..i wld be da happiest woman in da world lah..hehe..

but nah..my wedding wld still be a long time to come..cos bucuk haven even proposed to me lah..how sad is tat..soo many of my sedara's ard my age are either gettin engaged or married lah..n yesterdae..the groom was onli 1 yr older than me lah..n i bet da bride is even younger..as for me..i haven even get engaged lah..hahah..nvm lah..no rush actualli..

cuzzy julie was sayin like we shld tunang n get married in da same yr..yeahh..i definitely agree..since we started dating our bfs ard da same time too..n we were even jokin tat we shld get married one day after the other..MADNESS!!i'd probably be sleepin on ur wedding dae lah cuzzy..hahaha..

how fast time flies huh..few yrs back we were all playin "barbie dolls".."rumah2" n "wagon2" together..da best one wld be "feminin2" lah..hahaha..but now..all of us r all grown up..wif serious relationships..its juz a matter of time tat we decide to finally settle down..it wld actuali be real excitin for my family to hold a weddin cos all my datok nyer cucu2..none r married yet..lets juz wait n see who'll be da first..hehe..

as for now..we can juz look fwd to tompang gembira @ other ppl's wedding lah..n i already hav a number of weddings lined up till end of da yr..phew!!seems many ppl are gettin married this yr huh..n b4 i end my entry yg veri da panjang lebar ni..i wana say sori for not updatin for damn long..bz werkin as usual..n to make up to u ppl..here r sum fotos taken @ da wedding by 4 VERI BORED INDIVIDUALS..hahah..tc..

da 3 mak neneks..

i wld hav died of boredom w/o these 2..

lil ol me & not so lil eddy boi..

tryin to conceal our boredom wif forced smiles..

tis one can't conceal her boredom any longer..

takin pics to kill time..

boredom made us do tis..

da other luv of my life..my 7260..

my oh-not-so-happenin life..

2005-03-06T16:20:00.000-08:00

i am FINALLY back..and i noe my blog's turned kinda "lifeless" ever since i started werk..which is non-intentional lah..cos u all noe how much i LURRVE bloggin rite??n u ppl out there make da whole bloggin process a whole lot SWEETER!!thk u soo very much for ur support & tags..lup u all..so now lemme juz giv u all a quick summary of wats happenin in my oh-so-not-happenin-life..anywae..no new pics to upload..sori ppl..

1)WERK..WERK & MORE WERK..

tis particulary thingy here takes up like 2/3 of my daes lah..but amazingly..i'm kinda enjoyin it..rather entertainin wif fun colleagues who help to kill time..we'll juz crack jokes & hav a gd luff..let go of pressure @ werk..da werk part is rather routine lah..but i get to learn lots of legal stuffz..neva expected da legal industry to be so interesting..n makin it MUCH MUCH SWEETER..yesterdae was my PAY DAY..pay day = shoppin sprees!!how da veri SYIOK rite!!

2)my ever-so-precious MR BUCUK..

yesh..tis person here takes up a significant amt of my time too..i've been seein lots of him da past wk despite bein bz wif werk..camne tak kalo every alternate days i'll go over his place after werk..for luv anithin pun rela sacrifice..hehe.. n yeah..we're still madly deeply in luv.. :)

3)21st bdae plannin..

tis one veri da XCITIN..i soo luv plannin for bdaes u noe..esp MINE!!:P my 21st bdae is FAST approachin..i hav many2 things to plan for..thk god bucuk is helpin me wif it..i've already chosen my bdae cake u noe..veri da kiasu rite!!haha..but da chalet ah..a bit problem..i wanted da big one @ aloha loyang..but all da sats are fully booked!!veri da saddenin rite!!haizz..i guess i'll hav to make do wif my usual costa sands dbl storey chalet..da east coast one..cos there more happenin wat..hehe..n i better finalise my guests & food list soon..i wana make sure tis 21st bdae party of mine will be a memorable one.. :P

those r wat i've been up to lah ppl..besides havin lack of beauty sleep..lack of watchin tv..lack of free time..lack of time to take pics..not veri xcitin huh..hehe..n one more thing tats on my mind lately..i've been tinkin of colorin my hair AGAIN..i feel kinda weird wif black hair..maybe not used to it lah..hehe..tot of goin back to my old hair color..or maybe wif highlights..but syg lah like dye my hair black for a while onli..haizz..opinions ppl??

my old hair color back in 2003..how??

vdae oh vdae!!

2005-02-19T22:04:00.000-08:00

i noe..i noe..u ppl hav been waitin for my vdae entry cam buah tak jatuh..actuali wana update earlier..but werk has been drainin all my energy..balik jer penat so tido siang..n da weekends r FINALLY here..so i FINALLY get to do my vdae entry for u ppl..n b4 i start..i wana thk u ppl first for regularly taggin n bein so concern abt me..u ppl r SIMPLY DA BEST!!

as for werk..its goin pretty well..kinda lovin my job..but quite stress at times..cos u can't afford to make mistakes werkin in a law firm..everythin u handle involves the law..n its been a fast week at werk..my colleagues r SUPER NICE..alwes so helpful n guidin me thru werk..thks guys.. :)

n as for vdae on mon..we dbl dated after werk..bucuk & me..best fren & her bf..we went to eat pasta @ a restaurant at taka..REAL NICE..n i was soo touched when bucuk bought me flowers even though i said i didn't like real ones..cos he dun wan me to feel disappointed..how da veri swit is tat!!i soo luv my bucuk!!

he even took off frm werk tat dae to find my vdae present as he was bz werkin b4 tis..he actuali wanted to buy me da guess watch tat i wanted..but da shop where we saw it already no more..sighhzz..but besides flowers..bucuk gav me a box of rocher chocs & also a sonia rykiel perfume..my fave chocs & perfume of all!!how thoughtful rite!!n u ppl hav been waitin to noe wat i bought bucuk rite??i bought him an "adidas climacool" watch..compiled him all our pics frm baby to now in an "album of luv" & also baked him choc chip cookies..n to make things easier..lemme juz let da pics do da tokin k..enjoyy!!

p.s: sori for da veri da penat face..cos came straight after werk..still in my office wear..heheh..

i can't live without him..

he can't live without me..

we can't live without each other..

n they can't live without each other??hahaha..

dangerously in luv..

our all-time fave couple..

my gifts for him..

his gifts for me..

a sneak peek in our album of luv..us "before"..

us "now"..

a msg frm da heart frm yours truly..

him wif his brand new "adidas climacool" watch..

me wif my brand new sonia rykiel perfume..my fave scent..

n yes..our relationship's officially 4 YRS OLD now..

ms credit control officer...

2005-02-09T23:51:00.000-08:00

i seriously cldn't wait to share my good news wif u ppl on mon..but due to unforeseen circumstances..such as my bro hoggin da com & my inability to drag my not-so-heavy butt to da computer..i was unable to do so..but as da sayin goes.."it's better late than neva"..so here i am..2 daes LATE to be exact..

u ppl wana noe da gd news??lets juz put it tis way..u all can call me "CREDIT CONTROL OFFICER" frm now on..heheheh..got it??yess..i'm sure u smart ppl noe wat i'm tokin abt..I GOT A NEW JOB!!how da veri XCITIN is tat??n to make it even BETTER..i'll be werkin in a LAW FIRM..damn SYIOK huh..actuali i went for da interview on sat mornin..they said they wld kol by da 15th of feb..so juz imagine how SHOCKED i was when they called me on mon to tell me tat i was selected..damn fast rite..juz 1 dae after da interview..aper lagik..i was damn happi..mcm nak terlonjat2 in da train..but decided not to make a fool of myself in public..

but wif tis good news..it cums wif a sort-of bad news oso..its not onli da end of my lazin-ard-home-doin-nothin daes..i actualli hav to start werk on VALENTINE'S dae..veri da kesian kan!!haizz..but wat to do..i dun mind lah..cos werk is more impt..anywae bucuk oso can onli meet me after his werk..which is juz nice as i end werk ard da same time..n tis mon..i look forward to da start of my new career..as a CREDIT CONTROL OFFICER..how da veri kewl huh..wish me luck in my job k ppl.. :)

n tokin abt v-dae ppl..veri da kiasu me has already bought bucuk's gift on mon..which makes me officially broke now ah..hehe..hmmm..shld i reveal wat i bought?? *tinks real hard* but on 2nd thoughts..maybe NOT..giv u all suspense a bit lah..shall onli reveal it after v-dae..so be patient ah ppl..stay tuned for my vdae entry..haha..

p.s: cuzzy julie..it was fun shoppin for our vdae gifts 2gether last mon..let's do it again some other time aightz..wif da other 2 mak neneks.. :P

LUV is in da air..

2005-02-06T18:15:00.000-08:00

luv is in da air again..wif V-DAE ard da corner..not tat i was leadin a "luvless" life b4 tis lah..thk god i'm blessed wif a life filled wif luv..neva lack of it wif da existence of wonderful ppl like bucuk, our families, my frens & U nice ppl out there..n for me, V-DAE has an XTRA special meanin da past few yrs..cos my anniversary falls exactly 2 days b4..da 12th of Feb..so bucuk & me hav a 2-in-1 celebration on vdae every yr..n tis yr..it wld be exactly 4 YRS since we started goin out..sweetness!!

how's ur preparations goin ppl??as for me..started searchin for da PERFECT gift since Jan..yes..spirit of KIASUISM is veri da strong in me..it was a veri "MIND-DRAININ" process..cos after 4 yrs of bein 2gether..i hav oredy bought every gift possible..frm GOLD jewelery to watches to perfumes..zippo lighters to endless clothes..baked him countless food n even tiny g-strings!!haha..wat else is there to buy??

but thx to my EARLY preparation..oredy got my eye on bucuk's gift..i oso hav a detailed plan in mind for vdae..i'm actuali damn XCITED tinkin of wat bucuk is buyin me tis yr..last yr was my GOLD "shikin" pendant & a bouquet of pink roses..hope he'll buy me wat i wan cos i've been "hintin" to him OPENLY..haha..i soo wan a GOLD anklet or tat GUESS watch..duno will get or not..but wat matters most is tat i spend V-DAE wif da man i luv most lah.. :)

n yes..me, cuzzy julie n my sis will be headin to town tomolo..to buy our gifts..it wld be a nice "MAK NENEKS" day out..haha..but a pity julie's lil sis can't tag along..mayb nxt time k cuzzy..n i'll juz leave u ppl wif "OVERDUE" pics taken on hari raya haji..where da battle of da "MOST MEREPEK POSE" took place in da car..tats wat 4 BORED ppl came up wif during da LONG journeys to relatives hses..veri da MEREPEK rite us..as USUAL..wahaha..njoy..

dinner wif gurlfrenz...

2005-02-02T21:57:00.000-08:00

b4 i begin yakkin on & on abt today's entry..lemme juz giv my beloved, ever so supportive fellow bloggers da LATEST UPDATE on my veri da "rollercoaster" luv life..i tink most of u will be able to guess da outcome lah..thx to all ur well-wishes..bucuk & i are fine now..in fact..things hav never felt better..my insecurity & doubts over my relationship for da past few weeks were UNFOUNDED..it was juz all a BIG MISUNDERSTANDIN..

to think tat b4 tis i was feelin unsure if he was reali da guy for me & whether he reali, truly loved me..thk god we met up last mon for dinner n managed to tok things out..safe to say..i hav NEVER felt so sure abt our relationship..i am now VERI SURE tat he's da one for me..da one tat i wana be wif for da rest of my life..i juz noe it..cos my feelins for him hav neva chged ever since da first time i laid eyes on him 4 yrs ago..even now whenever i'm wif him..i feel like juz plantin many2 kisses on him n huggin him til he can't breathe..hehe..guess i can NEVER get enuff of my darlin bucuk..n its a reali good feelin i tell u..veri ON TOP OF DA WORLD.. :)

n frm wat we toked abt last mon..it made me realise tat i wasn't da onli one who was feelin insecure..he was too..he was juz so afraid tat i hav someone else or i wld juz leave him for another guy..which i wld NEVER EVER DO EVER AGAIN!!i oso realised how serious he was wif our relationship n how much i meant to him..i cld juz see da adoration in his eyes..veri da touchin rite.. :P

k lah..enuff of me feelin so lovey dovey n bein so mushy2..juz thankful tat we r fine now..alhamdullilah..n i wana tell my fellow bloggers how much i appreciate ur concern n encouragement..u ppl neva fail to make me feel better..n as promised..i added da pics taken last week at wif my ex-poly mates..its been a long time we since met up so wat else than a good dinner n catchin up session in a nice cosy restaurant..da food was damn nice..it was fun meetin u guys..i sure miss da times we had in skool..let's do it again soon aightz.. :)

da usual suspects..

da oh-so-temptin desserts..

is it the END??

2005-01-29T08:52:00.000-08:00

b4 i start my long-awaited entry..lemme juz address some stuffz..FIRSTLY..as USUAL..i noe i've not been updatin..a thousand apologies to my beloved fellow bloggers who are left with nothin to "savour" on..there are a few reasons for me to justify myself..such as life has not been tat good lately..no time to actuali make my little ass sit in front of da com to blog..my camera cable's MIA-ING AGAIN..one of da main reasons i dun update since i'm PICTURE-LESS & personally, i prefer my entries to be more "graphic"..u noe wat i mean..n lastly..one tat u all can actualli see for urself..i had been bz chging my layout since i'm kinda bored of da old one..juz wanted somethin simple n dark..hope u all like my new layout though.. :)

n yes..life hasn't been tat smooth sailin lately..cos i'm havin problems wif my relationship actualli..its been a dry spell for me and bucuk lately..filled wif quarrels as usual..haven been meetin him for nearly 2 weeks i tink..n we haven had da opportunity to really tok on da fone..i reali duno wats happenin to us..wif valentine's dae & our 4 YRS anniversary around da corner..our love life's not rosy at all now..haizz..y like tat?? :(

enuff of my problematic luv life lah..i promise i'll blog more once i got my cable back..wif more new fotos for u ppl to feast on..n i shall not forget to thank my faithful fellow bloggers for regularly vistin my bloggy despite it goin thru a dry spell lately..thx for ur tags ppl..juz pray for me tat me n bucuk r gonna be fine k..n once i'm back to my happy old self..i'll blog..more than usual.. :P

the end of "US"??

yipee!!we won!!we FINALLY won!!

2005-01-17T01:49:00.000-08:00

u noe wat ppl..i soo da CANNOT sabar at all i hav to update NOW!!not even a millisecond later!!for ur info..juz got back frm supper wif bucuk n frenz after watchin da SOCCER match..n YES..i'm tokin abt da match where da tickets are soo totally sold out & i feel soo SUPER LUCKY to hav been there..n YES AGAIN..Singapore won & da lions finally got their Tiger cup after many2 yrs..so, veri da proud lil ol me can rightfully claim my braggin rights now ah?? :P

NAHHH!!i not so mean one..but still..at least can brag a LITTLE rite??a TEENY WEENY BIT??cos i'm soo feelin PROUD to be a SINGAPOREAN now..dun u all??i'm soo filled wif utter excitement..esp juz now at da stadium when i got to see shahril ishak LIVE..cos LUCKY me was sittin sort of in front!!ooohhh!!tat moment i was practically LAUGHIN & TEARIN UP at da same time..hahah..where got possible u might ask..but for me..veri da super possible..i was on cloud 9..in heaven maybe..when i got to see him play LIVE..sooo da veri SUPER DUPER CUUUTEE!!i cld juz faint there man!!i reali felt young again..not tat i'm veri old lah..but i was juz like a school girl wif a HUGE HUGE CRUSH!!haizz..my heart pom pom pom..squealin in excitement nonstop when i see him..pinchin my best fren's arm like mad when i cldn't control my xcitement..veri da DRAMA rite me??hahah..but yes..tats ME..lil ol ME..

n for those who can't wait to noe..NOOO..bucuk DID NOT ketuk my little head lah..how come??SIMPLE..cos i wasn't sittin wif him durin da first half..soo tats y i cld SQUEAL all i wan for shahril!!hahaha!!but not purposely lah..i not so heartless one..cos i came wif bestfren..n he came wif his soccer team..n due to certain MISCOMMUNICATIONS n LACK OF RECEPTION..we ended up in diff parts of da stadium..soo sadd ritee..but wasn't for long lah..cos we met up durin half time & HAPPILY sat TOGETHER GETHER for da whole of 2nd half..wif me tryin VERI HARD to contain my xcitement when i see shahril ishak..cos due to ONE or TWO of my ACCIDENTAL outbursts..bucuk seemed to hav turned GREEN WIF JEALOUSY..hahah..saper tak syg matair kan..n to make things even sweeter..bucuk bet on da game..n guess wat..he won $600++ in cold hard CASH!!wow huh..a veri happi endin nonetheless..

and a thousand apologies cos no pics yet..digicam wif my sis who SMARTLY decided to sleep over her friend's hse after da match..GERAMMNYERR..n pics taken wif my hp not clear..can't reali zoom..onli see like tiny ants..hahaha..nak harapkan videos i took wif my hp..lagik worse cos 2nd half i was sittin damn high up wif bucuk n frenz..juz hope tat my sis did follow my instructions: "TAKE CLOSE UP OF SHAHRIL'S PICS!!" heheh..smart ah me..so as for now..i juz leave u all wif tis VERI DA PANJANG LEBAR grandmother's story..n a few msgz..

For da LIONS..CONGRATS ON WINNIN DA TIGER CUP!!For SHAHRIL ISHAK..I LUP U!!For BUCUK..I LUP U MORE!!For BEST FREN..SORI FOR PINCHIN U & SQUEALIN INTO UR EARS!!n last but least..For my faithful fellow bloggers..THX FOR VISITIN REGULARLY & UR TAGS!!u noe who u r..:)

FINALLY..after pennin down all my xcitement for u ppl..i can now HAPPILY go bathe cos veri da bucuk..after tat..proceed to dreamland to dream of my SUPER CUTE SHAHRIL ISHAK!!droolzz..GD NITEz ppl..ermm..mornin lah actuali!!:P

tigerr cup..here i comeeee!!

2005-01-14T07:47:00.000-08:00

ooohhh..i'm feelin oh-so-excited lately..n u ppl wana noe y??i story to u k..cossss..lil ol me has a BRAND NEW OBSESSION!!n wats tat u might ask..lemme juz gib u a clue k..i got da TICKETS to my latest obsession..n tats A VERI DA BIG clue already ahh..i'm sure u smart ppl out there wld hav been able to guess wat IT is..its a veri da HOT topic now u noe!!n since i'm oh-so-nice n dun wan to toy wif u ppl's curiosity further..i shall reveal wat IT is k..IT issss...TIGER CUP!!veri da xcitin rite!!n wat makes me feel even better is tat all da tickets r SOLD OUT within 2 days n i feel OH-SOOO-LUCKY to hav gotten my hands on dem!!hehehe..

n yes..i'll be there to watch da long-awaited match..together wif bucuk..his family..my family..n soo onn..we one big HAPPI family will be there to cheer our LIONS on..n wat makes it EVEN sweeter is tat..i actuali get to see the REASON for my latest obsession..which is the ohh-so-cute SHAHRIL ISHAK!!dun u all tink he's juz soo xtremely HOT..hehe..sighhzz..my number 17 has been da ONLI reason tat i've been watchin the matches religiously..incl all their repeat telecasts..how obsessed is tat!!hahaa..i dunnoo y..but i juz hav a soft spot for guys who has tat type of look..n on sunday..i actualli get to see the match LIVE..n hope i get to seat somewhere wif a real GOOD VIEW of him..hehehe..n yeahh..i'd hav to swoon at him in SILENCE..or else..bucuk will KETUK my head ahh!!hhahaa..dun worry lah bucuk..i still lup u many2..he's juz my FAVE player..tats all..:P

i'm still countin down to sunday..can't wait for my "date" wif shahril ishak.:P sooo da veri tak tau malu ah me..more like "date" wif da entire NATIONAL STADIUM lahh..haha..n let's juz pray hard tat singapore wld FINALLY win..then i can BRAG to everyone tat i was there to witness tat GLORIOUS moment..hahaha..yes..mean..veri da meann..n b4 i end my long awaited "yes-she-FINALLY-updated" update..juz wanted to ask u ppl out there..by any chance does any of u NICE ppl out there has brand new yello NIKE LIVESTRONG wristbands to sell..da one many ppl are wearin now..cos i'm DESPERATELY lookin for a seller in s'pore so i dun get cheated of my money..smart huh..hehe..n da one where i order directly will take quite long..n i dun hav da patience to do soo..soo if u ppl hav any lobang of ppl who wana sell tell me k..n if got white, pink & blue one even better..thk kayu ppl..take care!!

MIA-ing AGaiN..

2005-01-01T03:59:00.000-08:00

i noe..i noe..i've been MIA-ing AGAIN for the hundredth time maybe..BUTTT..as usual..i hav a VERI DA VALID EXCUSE again..hehehe..me full of excuses ahh..actualli..i went away to Kuala Lumpur for 3 days..n juz came back yesterdae b4 the yr ends..sempat lagik gi countdown..hahaha..imagine tat lah..baru balik from KL dah 9+ at nite..balik..letak bag..siap2 dgn lincah nyer..abeh straight gi somerset wif baby to meet his frens..woahh..RIBUT..like maybe 15 ppl..kecoohh..

we went to hang out a while then went over to orchard towers..so many ppl ah at orchard n many of them were spraying the thingy frm the can at anyone n everyone..n ONE particular IDIOT sprayed on my HAIR!!wat the HELL!!u tink i'll turn over and say "hapi new yr to u" n juz laugh it off izit???u wait LOOONGG LOOONNGG!!!n to "thank" tat IDIOT for spraying on my newly washed hair n for makin it all sticky..i juz turned to him n screamed "U IDIOTTT!!!!" rite in his Bloody face..he sooo deserved tat from me..hmmphh..bucuk's fren who was behind me n saw wat happened laughed and told bucuk "pai..jage pompuan kau..nanti ader org kena maki lagik.." hahha..he said new yr..muz relax..bucuk said if bukan new yr..muka dier dah kena pump..hahah..badutz..

but sadly..no pics for u all to see..cos smalam i onli brought sling bag..so can't selit my digicam in..hehee..n da pics at kl..neva took much oso..use bucuk's hp onli to take..oso he haven send me the pics..so y dun i juz leave u ppl wif pics frm the xmas eve celebration over at my office on the 23rd dec..which was a half day for us filled wif food..games..n fun..cos no pics like boringg kann..njoyyy..

me..my colleagues n our "ah beng" manager..

us wif our senior manager..

da 4 musketeers..

1 goes missin..now left 3..

me & da beng-nager..hehe..

engrossed playin musical chairs..

one BIG HAPPI family..awww..

straight yesterdae..curl todae..

2004-12-24T21:02:00.000-08:00

well..i noe i've been MIA-ING veri da damn longg..cos u noe wat!!my damn bloody cable internet is DOWN!!haiiyaaa...so da borin one..so now while waitin for it to be up again..i'll juz hav to bear wif da damn bloody sloooowww internet which u use da fone line..how da veriii "old skool" is tat!!so tats my veri da VALID REASON y i haven been updatin my dusty2 blog..probably filled wif tons of spiderwebs ah now..

so lemme juz backtrack many2 wks ago..my little cuzzin got circumsized..so all of us went over to his hse to visit him at nite..mini family gatherin lah..so to make tis entry as short n sweet as possible since my internet is damn da veri sloooww..lemme juz go straight to da point..me n my fellow cuzzins decided to experiment wif my little cuzzin's new "toy"..a philips 8 in 1 hair styler..n who bcums the guinea pig??ME LAH..as usual..n soo they took turns curlin my little straight hair..then it turned CURLY!!like duuuhh...hehe..i actualli kinda liked da outcome..made me toy wif da idea of curlin my hair nxt yr..those dolly2 curls..wat do u ppl tink??tats all lah for now..will be back when my cable's up n runnin again..muz miz me k..:P

my curly new-do..

my latest denim outfit..

me n my little hairdresser..

da little hairdresser wif her trusty tool..

n her collection of BARBIE outfits which i soo wana hav..

da cannot sit still guinea pig..

lepak-ing cuzzins..

lucky lucky bucuk...

2004-12-05T05:10:00.000-08:00

lil ol' me has officially finished "bertapa-ing" in the gua..n since i'm in a jolly good mood todae..decided to drop a little somethin in my poor, neglected, "dusty" little bloggy..actualli i've been reali tied down wif werk lah..how xcitin can my now veri-da-routine life get..werk..eat..sleep..24/7..BOOORIIINNGG..haizzz..but do i hav a choice..n i get to meet my precious bucuk once a wk onli..how deprived can i get??so da kecian rite??n speakin of my precious bucuk..i'm in a good mood cos of him actuali..hehe..wana noe y??dun wan oso i tell u k..did u all watch slamat pagi singapura earli tis mornin??da part where they hav da golden chance lucky draw thingy??cos da last name they mentioned is none other than bucuk's name!!hehehe..so it officially means tat my lucky bucuk is $1000 richer todae..YIPPPEEEE!!!how veri da xciting is tat!!

n one might wonder y i'm soo happy even though it wasn't me who won..cos his money is my money watt..haha..lil ol me will officially get to benefit from da money..how da veri syiok is tat!!yippee again!!cos my beloved bucuk has promised to giv me $200 to buy the new hp tat i've fallen madly deeply in luv wif..7260 if i'm not wrong..n obviously i hav to top up wif my own money lahh..but better than nothin rite cos he pay for me half lah like tat..syukur alhamdullilah...n even my own family benefits frm his winnin..cos my veri da generous bucuk is gonna treat his & my family to dinner tis wednesdae..best sehhh..makan free..wahahaha..when da dae cums i'll update u ppl wif fotos k..promise.. :)

n let me dedicate a portion of my bloggy to my 2nd syg..which issss...TAUFIK BATISAHHH!!oohhhhh..how hot can he get!!n his amazing voice..it makes me melt wif every little word he said...swoooonnnn..n thk god he won s'pore idol..cos lil ol me voted for him..over 20 times!!haizz..da more i look at him..da more my hands are itchin to vote for him!!how ADDICTIVE can he get!!i sooo do wann to marry him!!hahah..nahhh..i'm still madly deeply in luv wif my bucuk lah..haha..n i totally luvv dat "i dream" & "ain't no sunshine" song tat he sung..powerrr!!can't wait for 17 dec cos tat dae i'll DEFINITELY get my hands on his first album..so frm tat dae onwards i'll breathe TAUFIK..live TAUFIK..dream TAUFIK..eat TAUFIK..errr..ok..da last part sounds a bit scary lah..nahh..dun worry..i wun eat u lah syg..hahah..dream on lah shikin.. :P

da $1000 couple..

my 2nd syg..yeah ritee..

he's hottest wif brown hair dun u tink??droolzz..

raya wif bucuk..

2004-11-18T23:17:00.000-08:00

on da 2nd dae of raya my hse was flooded wif guests non stop..so mummy had to stay at home n entertain da guests..n to make it EVEN WORSE..tat day's a holidae n it's one of da RARE days tat i dun hav to werk..WAT A BUMMER RITE!!so lil ol me decided to RUN OFF wif baby n his family to go visitin to their side..smart eh..taknak miz opportunity lah katakan..hehehe..

so yes..we went to a few hses..ate lots of good food as usual..but no collection xcept for baby's hse (his mummy gav me 10 bucks)..haizz..n u wana noe YYY?? cos my bucuk is givin da little kids duit raya already...hmmmpphh..tis yr no biz lah me..dah TUA!!hehehe..

bucuk n i wore our matchin STRIKIN RED baju raya tat dae..they were actuali last yr's baju raya but since we didn't buy any tis yr...we decided to "re-cycle" dem..cos bucuk dun wana buy any new clothes tis yr since his dad recently passed away..so jln raya pun for immediate family jer..tak se-meriah last yr..n me pon dah malas nak type..so juz let da pictures do da tokin as usual..hehehe..

pengantin baru ke??

no..noo..lom lagik..

ngah "practice" jer..ader potential tak??

n how can i 4get my 2 fave kiddos..

ENCORE of da ever popular "act kiut" pose..

3 dara pingitan ke??

cuba teka saper kakak saper adik??

kiter lah kakak to both of dem..hehe..

cAmAt ArI aYeee!!!!

2004-11-17T17:25:00.000-08:00

CAMAT ARI AYE everyone!!as usual..me the BAD BAD blog neglecter, has been neglectin my dahlinn blog AGAIN!!but today..since i am on MC frm werk..due to the much dreaded SORE THROAT..decided to giv u all a BIG scoop on wat's been happenin in my oh-so-stagnant-due-to-werk life..b4 raya..lil ol me has been veri2 bz wif hari raya preparations..werk n oso "lelong-ing" on malam raya..haha..yeapsz..i went to geylang on the eve of hari raya..n gosh..it was DAMN packed, hot n stuffy..n nopes..i didnt go wif baby..cos he was werkin OT..so i went wif his sis, bro n cuzzins..was kinda fun actuali..cos on da way home..baby's cuzzins who were actin like "setan terlepas"..kept on chasin me n his sis wif cockroaches..EEEYUCKS!!n us bein the scaredy cats..went screamin like nobody's biz in the wee hrs of the mornin..haha..

n i onli got like 1 hr of sleep b4 raya..cos as usual..too rajin already..was bz doin up the hse last min since my family are comin over here this yr..n yesh..as usual..visit older relatives hse..like 8 hses i tink..stuffed myself wif all the gd food..esp the usual yearly nasi briyani at one of the hses..yummyy!!i was so damn shagged after all tat jalan-ing..kept on sleepin in the car..so to avoid me frm writin a grandmother's story..i'll juz let the pictures do the tokin kaes..ENJOY!!

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finally cinderella meets prince charmin..

2004-11-03T23:24:00.000-08:00

FINALLY...the dae tat i've been desperately longin for has come after wat seems like many2 centuries..hehe..yes..i'm exageratin again..as usual..but boy, was i damn HAPPI when i FINALLY got to meet baby yesterdae..it was his off dae so he came to fetch me frm werk..we FINALLY managed spend some time together after the many2 FAILED recent attempts..n once i saw him frm afar waitin for me at da mrt station..it instantly made me feel like it was our first date..hehe..butterflies, xcitement n all..da sight of my bucuk INSTANTLY lighted up my face even though i was tired due to werk..i was smilin non-stop..hehe..sweet kan..tats wat i luv abt our relationship..every date seems like the first..:)

n first we headed to town..i "borong" clothes lagik pat OSMOSE..cldn't stop myself as usual..neither cld baby..hehe..2 weeks ago i already spent $100 plus on osmose clothes..n yesterdae..another $100 plus there..arrrgghh!!i'm addicted to osmose!!even baby was shocked when he looked at my receipt..u ppl shld hav seen tat look in his face..hahah..but nvm lah..thk god i hav their privilege card..still cheaper than the actual price..

after my mini shoppin spree..went back to baby's hse to buka..cos his whole family is there..even his precious little cuzzin bina..gosh..i sure do miss her..n she's still as cute as ever..makin becok jer..hehe..when i reached there..i didn't notice her..but then i heard tis cute little voice sayin "TATAK CICIN"..(translated as "kakak shikin" in adult language)..n then i saw her hidden in btw all da other kids..hehe..she's sooo damn kiuut lah..sempat lepaskan rindu.. :P

after buka..not the end yet ahh..baby n me went to geylang wif his frens..jln2 to survey stuffz..n yesh..i bought lots of food home for me n my family..deng deng.. burger..ayam n more..all courtesy of baby since he got his pay tat dae..heheh..he's tryin to impress his mommy in law lah..:P n it was back home after tat..been a long dae..n tomolo werkin again..haizz..tats all lah for now..i'll try my very best to update more k if i'm NOT xhausted..hehe..take care ppl..

addicted to each other..

addicted to her..

addicted to him..

addicted to spendin..

soo damn Xhausted!!

2004-10-29T23:25:00.000-07:00

my oh my..itz been a real energy drainin week for me..luckily it went by kinda quick..tap tup tap tup..dah friday..i'm soo damn relieved..at least i dun hav to wake up at 6.30AM to go to werk tomolo..yipee!!n yeapz..u ppl heard it rite..started my new job last mon..n since da office is at tanjong pagar..everydae i hav to travel for abt 1 hr juz to get there..got straight bus lah..stop rite in front of my office buildin..but sit for soo damn long..my POOR POOR butt achin sit too long..haha..n hav to wake up soo damn early..everydae sleep less than 5 hrs..haizz..cannot tahan man my POOR POOR eyes..not enuff rest..hehe..but nvm lah..work 1 week onli juz now get pay..cos end of da mth wat..SYIOK..

but not bad lah..made a lot of new frens..kinda fun actuali werkin there..da ppl n managers veri da funny..alwes disturb ppl..hehe..such a warm n friendly environment to werk in..werkin oso no stress..BUT got DISADVANTAGE oso lah..everydae werk 9 to 6..then go home penat tido..mornin mornin already hav to wake up..no time to see baby..furthermore..he oso werkin..he's more kecian..veri long hrs..mornin to nite..alwes mengadu he penat got a lot of werk to do..my POOR POOR baby..n for da record..we haven met for 1 wk like tat..both oso soo bz werkin..haizz..i miz baby many2 lah..maybe we'll catch up durin da weekends..gi geylang maybe..yeapz..that'll be nice..hehe..i wana eat deng2 n burger..drooolzz..:P

n a thousand apologies to my fellow bloggers for not updatin for quite some time..dah start werk i doubt i'll hav time..maybe durin weekends lah..i'll try my very best not to neglect my POOR POOR bloggy n u ppl okaes..hmmm..n i oso chged my song..since i had plenty of time everydae while travellin to n from werk..i did quite a lot of tinking back..teringat kenangan2 dulu..mcm2 org n situations arr teringat balik..those gd old times..hehe..n tis song was one of my faves durin my clubbin days..pantang kalo dj main lagu ni..takleh dok diam..hehe..kinda suprised jugak ader lagu ni..aper lagik..letak lah..hehe..i got to noe da title pon frm someone last time..SOMEONE who was reali good wif findin all da latest songs pat club2..haizz.. :(

tats all lah..taknak panjang lebar..nanti i bore u all lak..hehe..so take care ppl..

good news ppl!!

2004-10-19T16:13:00.000-07:00

yipeee!!i am so esctatic man..u wanna noe y??cossss...baby n me r FINE now..in fact..10 times better..maybe 100??hahaha..enuff of my exageratin..well..i feel real relieved now tat we've managed to clear up da misunderstandins..n yesterdae i went over to baby's hse to buka..but not b4 goin out wif baby sis n my sis..yeaps..u saw it rite..my sis n baby's sis CAN AMAZINLY get along..now they even regularly exchg smses n are plannin to go out again..WITHOUT LIL OL ME!!hmmmphh..so bad ah dem..leave me out..heheh..my sis n i went to town first to buy some clothes then we headed of to meet baby's sis at tanjong pagar cos she wanted to make a gift for her fren..

n when i entered baby's hse..da first thing tat baby's mummy said to me was.."dah cukup bertapa sampai kluar sisik?"hahah..cos i hadn't been comin over for few wks when i was quarrelin wif baby..wat a tease lah his mummy..hehe..n yeaps..baby bought a new fone..tat samsung fone in da tv ad where the model takes pics of herself on da car..damn gd u noe..can take continuous snapshots of 6 or 9..can oso put frame when takin foto..bestt lah..n da weirdest thing is tat now baby's more obsessed abt takin fotos then me..skejap2 nak amik gambar..penat lah baby..hahah..n now in his fone filled wif our fotos..i've uploaded some for ur viewin pleasures..ennjjooyy..

after tat we spent some time alone..catchin up to wat we had missed for da past few wks..n we realli missed each other so damn much lah..so glad tat he's by my side now..i'm da happiest girl alive..hehe..n baby..thx for da time spent wif u yesterdae..it was juz AMAZIN!!n for many2 more to come..hehe.. ;P

kiss & make up..awww..

da stubborn half..

da even more stubborn other half..

still NOT on tokin termz..

2004-10-11T17:06:00.000-07:00

haizz..so sad man..juz now when to kubor wif baby's family and mine..and yeapz..as da title shows..we're still NOT ON TOKIN TERMS..haizzz..dunno till when man..and u ppl noe wat??most of his family members noe abt it too..cos his aunts and cuzzins r askin me whether we ok already or not..more like KO i wld say..he didn't even tok to me lah!!arrrggh..stress man..he pms i guess..hahah..

but da best thing is tat..i wore a RED baju kurung juz now..and COINCIDENTALLY..baby oso wear RED baju melayu!!how fated is dat..goodie..we can read each other's mind..even when we dun tok..hahah..well..for da record..he onli toked to my mummy..but neva tok to HER DAUGHTER oso..which is me lah..who else..alah..duno lah..weiird relationship we hav..like wat his mummy wld say.."korang dua cam anjing kucing..kalo baik..baiikk nah..kalo pat berangin..haizzz.." hav to admit lah..mummy noes best..but kinda used to it lah..baby & me alwes like tat..tak lama lagik baik lah..i HOPE sooo..hahahah..kalo tak..tu another chapter leh bukak..hehe..

so i got to see my late dad's completed grave juz now..soo nice..black in color..i kept on suggestin tat we put vases..flowers & umbrella at his grave..but duno y.. everytime i suggested..my family will look at me one kind & laugh..and my bro even said.."bawak tv ngan radio skali arr letak pat situ"..haha..sarcasm as usual..but i juz wanted to decorate his grave a bit wat..so look nice..like some graves there.. soo da veri nice..

and tats all lah ppl..cos later a bit goin out wif my mum..grocery shoppin..mummy's girl lah katakan..heheh..n yesh..i juz hope tat baby and i will start talkin again soon..hopefully b4 bulan puasa..so we can go geylang together..haha..been a bit too overboard arr our argument..better do somethin lah shikin..quick tink of a solution to tame ur veri da stubborn bf..hahahah..lots of luv ppl..tata..

soo badly miz tis baby bucuk of mine..

even his dumb & irritatin antics..

miz havin him by my side..

addicted to spendin!!HELP!!

2004-10-09T23:49:00.000-07:00

oh my god..i've been on a spendin spree tis week!!i gotta stop..b4 my pocket totally kosong!!hahaha..like baby alwes says.."kalo blanja cam gitu..org kaya pun leh jadik kayap!!"..hehe..true..true..tis week i bought quite a few stuffs..i bought a new WHITE bag..a new veri da cute WHITE pair of shoes..a pair of NOT WHITE jeans..and oso many2 fattening snacks..like famous amos cookies & meiji chocolates.. oohh.. sungguh da sedap man..hehe..so noticed somethin ppl?i hav a brand new obsession..all things WHITE!!kinda suprisin lah da chg in taste since 3 quarter of my stuffz are BLACK in color..dunno lah..me veri da fickle one..cum to tink of it..most girls are fickle rite..hehe..

maybe i noe y i hav been spendin soo much..i tink i'm stressed out..hehe..by wat u wld ask??hmmm..who else..baby lah..he ah..gettin on my nerves man..makin tua bukan prangai makin baik..makin terok aderlah..hahah..i've been avoidin his kols tis whole wk..cos juz wanted to teach him a lesson..so to date now..we haven tok or met each other for like a wk lah..so sad huh..but i hav to admit lah..i reali do miz him many2 lah..kept on tinkin abt him even when i was out at town just now..

yeapz..me and best fren went to town again juz now..wateva for u wld ask??ohh..we went to da teaching seminar..juz wanted to keep our options open lah..hehe..it feels kinda stressful lah..at tis point in life..u hav to make big, impt decisions which will affect ur whole future..i kinda confused wat to do actuali..but no rush..i can take time to think thru wat i reali wan to pursue..

n yes..tomolo i finally meetin baby..but nopes..we are still NOT on talkin terms..hehe..juz tat both our families are goin to da cemetery together in da mornin..our fathers nyer kubor dah siap..can't wait to see da outcome..n baby oso!!hehe..miz him like crazy man..but wonder if he's even excited to see me after one whole wk..we'll noe tomolo..see if things go well or we still remain NOT on talkin terms..hope wif me too k ppl..heheh..

my new WHITE bag..

aren't they juz soo cuttee!!

luv at 1st sight!!had to buy them..wait can't sleep..haha..

mummy..i wana study!!

2004-10-02T23:52:00.000-07:00

guess wat ppl??best fren & i went to Singapore Institute of Management (SIM) juz now!!veri da excitin u noe..da skool soo damn HUGE..soo damn NICE & its fully air conditioned!!wow!!n da best thing of all is tat..we're tinkin of takin da degree in business admin, specializin in marketin..which was wat i was already doin in poly..cos marketin is a real interestin field u noe..n wif our poly diploma we can get ADVANCED STANDIN..meanin we get to go straight to 2nd yr..n complete our degree in 2 yrs instead of 3..veri da syiok rite!!i soo cant wait to be a "business woman"..a career woman of power..haha..

well..we went for da briefing, consultation & sorts juz now..seems like a real good place for us to earn our degree..n u all wana noe somethin even MORE XCITIN??i'll get to study in melbourne for a few wks durin one of da semesters!!VERI DA XCITIN rite??heheh..n da bestof all is i get to study wif my close frens..as my best fren is enrollin wif me & many2 of my poly mates are either already in there or goin in nxt yr too..so i wun feel lonely lah cos i no fren can die like tat..haha..i oso hav da support frm my loved ones..esp mummy & my baby..baby was extremely supportive of my decision..he said "asalkan niat baik sudah" n he dun mind waitin for me..soo da veri swiit rite!!tat reali means a lot to me & i appreciate ur understandin baby dearest!!so i juz doa to Allah tat things will turn out fine as i planned it to be..cos i soo wan da degree badly..hehe..pray for me k beloved ppl.. :)

my ever supportive queen mummy..

yipee!!we're gona be stuck for 2 more yrs bestfren!!

da ever understandin prince charmin of my fairlytale..

mini makeover..

2004-09-27T21:17:00.000-07:00

yeapz ppl..i had a mini makeover last sat..i finally..i stress FINALLY..got my rebonding thingy over and done with..as u all can see thru my pics later..i might look a tad bit diff..n u all noe y??izzit tat my hair is straighter now??maybe..or is my hair style diff now??hmm..possibly..or is it tat my hair color is DIFFERENT?? yeahh..DEFINITELY..i had my crownin glory colored black cos i'm kinda sick n tired of colorin my hair..tried many2 diff colors already & kinda growin out of tat phase..so decided to do somethin diff n dye it jet black instead..hehe..well, i haven reali gotten use to my new hair..feels a bit weird lah seeing myself wif black hair but i'm sure i'll get used to it..hope so..

n few days b4..i got my nails done..did a pedicure on my teeny weeny feet..hehe..cos itz been a real long time since i last did a pedicure..n yeah..nail art for my toes too..tat i'll neva forget..cos dun u all tink tat nail art makes ur nails look cuter & more girlish..n i lurrvvee feeling girlish..dun u all girls??hehe..as usual..some pics for u ppl to see my "transformation"..hehe..enjoyy..

take 1..

take 2..

my teeny weeny manicured nails..

my cinderella story..

2004-09-26T17:54:00.000-07:00

yippee!!i finally got to watch "a cinderella story" da other dae..wif who??baby of course..i didnt expect to watch wif him actuali since he dun seem da least bit interested in tat "girly" show..he'd cringe whenever i suggest watchin tat show cos he prefer action shows..as usual..GUYS..haizz..so poor me tot i'd hav to watch wif my frens instead..but AMAZINLY he agreed to watch wif me da other dae..(besides da fact tat there was no other shows available at tat time..haha..)it realli made my dae cos i soo wanna watch tat show..well..i noe he wasnt veri excited bout watchin it but it was reali swit of him to watch it cos of me..i luv ya many2 baby..hehe..

and tat show was SUPER NICE!!it was kinda slow at da start..but towards da endin..it was veri da touchin..it made me cry cos it realli touched my heart..n even baby agreed tat it was kinda sad..n he AMAZINLY commented tat the show was NICE after da show!!can u believe it!!haha..baby brainwashed by me!!n after tat show..we started callin each other cinderella and prince charmin..feels real nice to be in a fairytale huh..but as for me..i'm already livin my very own fairytale..found my prince charmin (baby)..n my very own royal family..hahah..i guess i'm kinda lucky tat way..i feel oh-so-complete now..:P

cinderella..

prince charmin..

n our veri own "shrine" in baby's room..

baby came back..

2004-09-25T22:15:00.000-07:00

as promised ppl..i managed to get some of my pics..so lemme juz backtrack a bit k..back to the day when baby came back frm genting wif his soccer team..errmm..i tink on the 6th sept to be exact..n yesh..OBVIOUSLY baby bought gifts for us..yippee yeahhh!!i luv gifts..dun u all??veri da excitin rite!!hehe..n yeahh..baby bought me the adidas jacket tat i wanted..n one for his sista too..onli diff color..his mummy and my mummy got the same things..tudung and veri pretty lookin brooches..swit ah he buy for his mummy in law..whahaha..n his bro n himself got t-shirts and slippers lah..nothin much ah cos he tak jadi go to KL..onli stayed at genting..and the things there as usual are kinda ex ah..wat a pity cannot buy more things..hehe..so anywaes..lil ol me damn the veri happy lah meetin my baby after few days without him..miz him lik crazy man..so to lepaskan rindu..i slept over there tat nite..n da nxt day..baby's family & me went shoppin..syiok rite..hehe..and to cut tis short..i'll juz leave da usual pics for u ppl to see..
p.s:some pics my face look kinda oily lah..tak sempat blot my face..hahah..solli ahh..

prince charmin is back!!

wif a brand new adidas jacket for his beloved princess..

and got himself a stripey top..

da lovebirds oso got matchin watches frm queen mother

da royal family..

lovebirds goin out nxt dae wif royal family..

bz bz me..

2004-09-24T17:26:00.000-07:00

woahhh..its been a real jam packed week..feel like all my energy has been drained frm my poor little body..soo exhausted..been so bz no time to even update..kecian tak ppl??hehe..well well..i've been such a BAD BAD blogger recently..neglected my bloggie & u nice ppl out there whose been faithfully visitin n expectin more updates but alwes no hav..sori many2 k..da GD news is tat i hav many2 past events to update BUUUTT..i hav a teeny weeny problem lah..no pics cos they're all in my laptop which is DOWN!!of all times y muz be NOW??haizz..so how ppl??no pics like veri da borin like tat..n da last thing i wana do is bore u guyz..hmm..guess i'll juz hav to try work out sum miracle lah & try to get hold of da pics asap..

n yesh..u ppl hav been askin bout my "oh-so-famous" cake..at least u all still tink it looks yummy lah..haha..u wan recipe??hehe..no recipe actualli..for brownie used betty crocker's pre mix batter..wat a cheat rite me..:p BUT..da top part i improvised and added on my own lah..*smiles proudly* hehe..

n i'd better not 4get tis nxt thing..i wana say a VERI GIGANTIC THANK U to my dearest fren lilian AGAIN..guess u all hav noticed i've added quite a few EXTREMELY CUTE personalised props wif my name & pics..yeah..lilian's da creator of all those..she actualli did all those for me without me askin her..ain't she da SWEETEST??hehe..i soo da damn LUCKY man got AMAZING fren whose an expert in all tis..i feel soo damn honoured and special cos onli little ol' me has those personalized props..one of a kind u noe..hehe..veri da SYIOK!!n juz wana say tis..UR DA BEST, LILIAN!!hehe..must do a bit more of apple polishing so tat maybe she'll do more props for me..rite lily??haha..:P

lastly..juz wana tell u ppl how much i appreciate ur vistin my blog..i'll promise i'll try my veri best to make updates regularly specially for u guys k..but for now..lots of luv frm little ol' me..take care ppl..

yippee..my veri own crystal ball!!

another one wif baby and me..awwww..

baby's bdae..

2004-09-07T01:11:00.000-07:00

lemme backtrack a bit..go back few days to 3 SEPT 2004..cos i've been too bz to update my blog on time wif a "veri da IMPT" event..which isssss..BABY'S 22ND BDAE!!yippeee..well..it was juz a simple occasion..nothin grand..since baby's dad passed away not long ago so made it juz a private family affair..no blowin of candles or watsoever..n to make up to not havin an actual bdae cake..lil ol' ME..bein da swit & luvin gf tat i already am..decided to bake a cake for him!!yipee!!not reali a cake lah..improvised a little..i baked a ROCKY ROAD BROWNIE for dear baby!!since he luvs eatin them so much..tot it'd be a pleasant surprise since its been real long i haven baked him tat..n yesh..he TOTALLY LUVED it!!

but there were a bit of glitches in the process of baking it lah..since EGGS r soo hard to find now..i had to go to 6 diff supermarkets in diff areas juz to find eggs..the first 5 i went to TOTALLY HAD NO EGGS!!can u believe tat!!i was reali gettin desperate cos it wld reali spoil my plan..but lucky for me..da last one i went too had 3 PACKETS left..i was soo damn relieved!!n i happily took one..which u noe cost me how much??it cost me a whoppin $4.95 jus for 10 EGGS!!DAYLIGHT ROBBERY MAN!!tinkin tat it used to cost onli a mere $1.20!!haizz..but nvm lah..i'd do anythin juz for dear baby..hehe..n for tat day..it was a bdae cake made wif luv.. :)

da not so pretty lookin cake baked by me..

da three bdae boys sharin da same bdae..

errrr..lemme juz chg tat to bdae GAYS..:P

aiyo..mau mkn pun susah..camera sibok lahh!!

a very good example of "THE VAIN KUALI"

sedap tak baby??SEDAAAPPPPPPP!!

da half eaten food..

a little somethin for baby..frm me, myself & i..

STEP 1: UNDRESS da present..

STEP 2: out comes an UNDRESSED MAN..

STEP 3: read da cute lookin little bdae card..

STEP 4: UNDRESS da UNDRESSED man..

SURPRISE..SURPISE!!another UNDRESSED man!!

no more video..sob sob!!

2004-09-06T18:20:00.000-07:00

i guess u ppl hav already noticed..my video player is gone..sob sob!!i oso made some re-arrangements..n i FINALLY chged da song tat i luved soo much..had to practically FORCE myself lah..poor me..:p n yeah..i'm goin back to da audio version since da videos tend to cock up sometimes..sad sad..but at least still got song rite..better than nothin..n a real nice one somemore..our lips are sealed..hope u all like it..hehe..n i oso chged my tagboard..to a much better one!!wif more features lah..i tink goes better wif my layout..dun ya tink so ppl?? :P

well..i can't blog long todae..cos baby comin back frm genting..yipee!!so as usual i hav to go over to baby's AGAIN..but now its to welcome my precious baby back!!he's been gone since fridae..wif his coach & soccer team mates..went to KL & genting..without poor lil ol me..i felt so luv sick for da past few daes!!cannot tahan arrr!!!miz him like crazy..felt so lonely..haizz..but my torment is gona be OVER veri veri sooonn!!like in a few hrs lah..sooo excited ah me!!i'll be countin da mins n seconds till i meet my dearest baby!!i'm gona hug him till he suffocate!!!hahah..sadist arr me..n yeah..probably gona sleep over his hse AGAIN since he's on leave tomolo..then can lepaskan rindu..hehe..maybe playin online scrabble..haha!!i better stop soon lah..i startin to get veri da long-winded..:P tat's all for now..gtg off to baby's soon..n my mom's startin to nag me askin me when i goin out..haizz..she can't wait to shoo me out of da hse lah..poor me..haha..take care ya..

wonders of life..

2004-09-04T14:55:00.000-07:00

hmmm..hav u eva actualli tot abt how life is??wondered y things happen in a certain way?n y girls n boys behave in diff ways??y girls are known to be more petty n catty unlike boys??yes..i said it..petty n catty..i hav to admit..all those bitching n stuffz..hating ppl..backstabbin..bearing past grudges..findin fault..i'm sure all of us girls are guilty of before..includin ME..BUT tat was way back in primary n secondary school!!i'm sure we've all now grown pass tis stage now..bein older n havin other MORE IMPORTANT responsibilities in life now..like focusin on settlin down ur luv life..climbin da xtremely looongg ladders of education..family bonding (as sum ppl aren't tat lucky to hav a full family..like me n baby..so we learned to treasure our loved ones even more)..or even growin ur career..but maybe..juz maybe..some girls are juz late bloomers..still stuck in their teenage days..

here are some things tat u might wan to ponder on..maybe u might need to backtrack to ur young teenage days..where u so wan to rebel..wana go against the flow juz to prove tat ur someone & r easily influenced by ur frens..those were da times where ur still tryin to achieve ur own identity..ask urself tis questions..how can i hate someone based on first impressions of da person..da outlook of a person when u hav neva even had a single conversation wif her??tat means u barely even noe her at all..onli seen her at times..n u already hate her based on how she looks or acts??how can u actualli tink tat da person is like tat juz by watchin her actions??tat is unless u have da powers to see thru her lah..which many of us dun..hehe..so now we noe y tis sayin exists.."Neva Judge a Book By Its Cover"..or maybe..juz maybe..some ppl dun even noe it exists..

or maybe u DID hav at least ONE conversation wif her b4..but are they like decent conversations which are long enuff for u to noe wat type of person she reali is??or was da conversations started by u bein rude and accusing stuffz n so da person replies defensively??tink abt it..ppl react to wat u say..if u say nice things..ppl reply nicely..but if ppl say stuffz which are not nice at all..obviously u'll get defensive since its not true..how can u hate someone when u barely even noe her??hav u eva tot y some ppl juz assume tat da situation is like tat when they see it bein like tat..without actuali knowing wat is happenin..tats y many2 Misunderstandings happen..

n one tat is veri popular among us girls..bearing of past grudges..n i mean "PAST" in like verii long ago..hav u ever bore a grudge against someone else juz bcos of somethin minor??yes..i'm sure we all did..but for me..tat was back in my secondary school days..when i was still real immature n stuffz..at tis age..i mean my age..i'm sure tat we hav other better n more impt things to do..we dun even hav time to tink of all tis childish games cos we hav skool or werk..n our very own life tat takes up far too much time..not free at all to "relive" our secondary skool days..juz TINK abt TIS..tat person u bear a grudge on may not even noe tat u EXIST at all..or dun even realise tat ur bearin a grudge on her..she may not even remember u at all cos ur not significant enuff to take up a teeny bit of memory space in her brain..maybe she didn't even tink tat da grudge u hav on her is too minor to be a grudge..or even she may hav long forgotten abt it since it happened veri looong ago..then it means tat ur juz wastin ur time n energy since she does not even realise ur existence anymore..i'm sure tat all of us hav Grown out of tis childish phase..but maybe...juz maybe..some ppl are juz too free..

n tokin abt too free..which i am NOT..i hav to get back to my bz life now..juz tot tat i wld take sum time off frm my hectic schedule to "enlighten" my fellow bloggers out there..since i myself was "enlightened" by how WEIRD life is actuali after tinkin abt it..so yes ppl..do take some time to ponder on these..makes sense doesn't it..kinda helpful for those who are still goin thru the "growin up" phase..so tats all for now peepz..take care ya..n me..back to bein busy..haizz..

dAy oUt WiF LiL BiNa N bAbY's SiS..

2004-08-19T11:49:00.000-07:00

as expected..i went to baby's hse again todae..but i finally did somethin diff..hehe..me n baby's sis wanted to buy some stuffz at northpoint so bein da kids lovers tat we are..we decided to bring lil sabrina(baby's cuzzin)along..n yeah..it was fun..i super luv her damn da veri cute antics..n she's soo vainn..luvs takin pics..noe how to pose somemore..haha..hmmm..maybe i influenced her??nah..dun tink so..runs in da family..:P so not gona tell u all some long grandmother story lah for tis entry..juz look at da pics ya..anywae..action speaks louder than words..hehe..enjoyyy..

northpoint..here we comeee..

wan to learn how to pose mentel??come..come..i teach u..

"mentel" pose by da xpert..hehe..

aiya..if still duno..juz force lah..

our cleopatra tak jadi pose..

n da ever popular "act cute" pose..

1st shot - me n baby's sis - playin ard..

after many2 shots - finally..a serious one..

bAbY oN mC..

2004-08-18T21:16:00.000-07:00

opps ppl..i've been missin agaaiinn..sowie lah..u all wana noe y??dun wana noe oso u got no choice cos i still wana say..haha..actuali baby is now on mc for A WEEK!!since last mon..how da veri syiok is tat!!tats y lah i've been over at baby's hse like everydae n neglectin my poor blog n u ppl..cos muz make full use of tis opportunity to spend time wif my precious b4 he starts on his werkin spree again..hehe..smart ah me..n oso not forgettin to nurse him back to health..like real onli..hehe..

well..as u all aredy noe..his 1 wk mc is all thx to his swollen, achin n hairy leg..hehe..he finally went to da hospital after like one wk of gettin injured..cos smart baby went to play soccer AGAIN wif his injured leg last sun n obviously da leg bcame more injured lah..aiyoo..act tough onli my baby..wait pain somemore saper susah..me jugak susah..haha..n guess wat happened then..da gd news is tat he was not admitted..but bad news issss..if his leg does not get better after medication..he might hav to go for operation!!aaarggghh..my poor poor baby..i juz hope he dun hav to go thru tat..pray for me ah ppl..:)

n yeah..basically i've been wastin my time away at baby's hse all tis while..family bonding lah katakan..hehe..da same old routine lah there..eat..teach baby's bro tuition..sleep..play wif da small kids..but amazingly i neva get bored of doin juz tat..maybe cos its baby n his family..hehe..nothin much to see..but nevertheless..i added some pics taken over at baby's..tata..

me n da naughti lil ones..

baby's staircase pose..

baby's lil cuzzin imitatin him..cute huh

cHgS N UpDaTeS..

2004-08-17T22:27:00.000-07:00

hey beloved ppl of mine..lil ol me made some minor chgs n updates..for starters..i finally chged my video to another song..since da bonnie n clyde video was kinda cocked up..da music kept on stoppin..n i soo totally luv tis new song.. baby i'm in luv by thalia..it is like soo da veri suitable for me lah..n for da benefit of u ppl..i added in a new section..which is the "anthem of da wk"..where i'll be puttin up da lyrics of the video i hav playin for tat wk..easier for u all lah..esp for those wonderin wat the song is about..n b4 u all start complainin tat u can't see it..let me direct u to the new section..its in the same column as the video..onli tat u juz hav to scroll down to somewhere at the end..n i will oso be makin updates veri da soon..juz waitin for da pics to be uploaded..promise u guyz it wun take long..watch out for my latest updates k..take care ppl..

signin off..lil ol me..

pOoR BaBy HuRt HiS lEg..

2004-08-10T01:26:00.000-07:00

well..lil ol me juz came back frm a sleepover frm baby's hse..da actual plan was to watch fireworks at marina wif but unfortunately..silly baby hurt his leg durin a soccer match on sun..i tink its sprained or somethin..so we can't possibly go out since he's "tempang" n all..hehe..he can't even bend his knee wat more to travel all da way to marina..baby probably faint halfway man..haha..so we juz decided to be da "good" son n daughter-in-law n decided to spend national dae at home wif his family..n it didn't turn out tat bad..more like a family bondin session actuali.. minus da fact dat i fell asleep halfway thru watchin da ndp parade onli to wake up when its endin..haha..silly me..but juz can't tahan leh..since i neva get enuf sleep da nite b4..all thx to my precious baby..

da thing was tat baby cldn't get to sleep comfortably da nite b4 since his leg was achin n all..n to make things worse..his lil bro who was sound asleep on da bed unconsciously hit his swollen n achin leg!!haha..n wif baby constantly tossin n turnin in pain..it was impossible for me to sleep in peace n we ended up goin to da kitchen since didn't wana wake his family up..n there he pitifully complained to me tat his leg was hurtin n he cldn't even bend it anymore..n as da dotin gf tat i already am..i dutifully made an ice pack n "iced" baby's swollen knee til like 4 am in da mornin..

da nxt dae..i helped baby "limp" his way thru da whole s'goon central lookin for a clinic tats opened..n juz as expected..none was open since its national dae..haiya.. waste our time onli..n so we decided to juz wait n see tomolo..if he feels better he wld juz go to work..if not..juz take mc lor..there'll be plenty of clinics open tomolo anywaes..hehe..but in all..it was reali a diff xperience spendin national dae indoors..n wif all da s'pore idol william hung wannabes ticklin our stomach til it hurts..it was fun..haha..but makes me wonder..not shame meh they all??if i muz hide under da bananaman mask..hahaha..enuff of my crap..here's da usual pics for u guys..hehe..enjoyyy..

baby's swollen..achin..hairy leg..:P

poor baby..awwww..

me n baby's cuzzins..cute eh..

da mini mina dakwahs..hehe..

last but not least..da dotin n luvin gf..haha..

bRaNd NeW lAyOuT!!

2004-08-06T21:43:00.000-07:00

welloo ppl..hehe..i've juz totally revamped my whole blog..i've turned it all sweet n yellowish..filled wif cute little pink dollies..in other words..VERY THE CANDYLICIOUS..:p n yess..i AM veryyy da proud of myself..cos i did it ALL ON MY OWN!!hehe..believe it or not..no help frm my little sis at all..n now dat i'm gettin da hang of it..it seems rather easy..n yes sujata..its an achievement for a computer idiot like ME!!haha..n my blog turned out a lot better then i expected..juz da way i wanted it to be..all cute..switt n feminine..juz to satisfy da inner child in me..hehe..i totally lurve tis blogskin compared to da previous one..not as cramped and definitely OOZZIINN wif switness dun ya tink??hehe..n its all da product of my blood..sweat n tears!!naahhhhh..there i go exagerratin again..hehe..juz pdt of my hard work onli actualli..no blood..no sweat..no tears lah..haha..

n me wana sae a big THANK YOU to my GOOD FREN LILIAN for helpin me to customize some of da cute little dollies tat u see..yeahh..she did tat specially for me..n more on da way..ain't she da sweetest!!she's juz soo gd wif all tis dollies n webby stuffz..so pls support her AMAZING WEBSITE..wah..not wasted havin her as my poly classmate hor..hehe..i juz lurrvvee all her cute little dollies..kol me childish or wateva..but i'm still obssessed wif dolls..n definitely not ashamed to sae tat i still luvv barbie dolls..i tink i can neva outgrow dem..hahah..even my baby tinks i'm mad..:P n soo yeah..hope u guys luv my new layout as much as i do..n thx a lot for loyally visitin my little humble blog..til my nxt update..take care sweeties..:)

proud lil ol' me..hehe..

In MeMoRy oF baBy'S dAddY..

2004-08-06T17:27:00.000-07:00

yes..i noe i've been missing for quite some time..as usual..busy ol me..spendin time wif baby's family..teachin baby's bro tuition..juz bein there for baby n his family..lendin dem support in tis difficult phase tat they're goin thru..i juz wana try my best to give dem wat they hav given me..i am soo indebted to dem..so tis is da time for me to return their gd deeds..hope u guys understand my position..

they treated me like part of their family..times spent wif them r always filled wif warmth..luv..laughter..n fun..n yeah..i simply luv to be in their company..n not forgettin da many2 times they brought me overseas for holidaes in my 3 and a half yrs wif baby..thailand..kl..johor to balik kampung..n da list goes on & on..those times are simply unforgettable..n since i managed to get hold of some pics frm our previous holidaes together..i'll upload them for ur viewing pleasure..tis will be da first in a few series of tributes to baby's daddy..these pics were taken durin da last holidae we went together b4 his daddy passed away..it was a trip to KL in dec 2003..juz late last yr..how fast time flies huh..

it reali saddens me when i look at those pics..it will neva be da same again now dat baby's daddy is gone..now..it will onli be left wif da 5 of us..no doubt we reali miz havin him ard..but allah luvs him more..so now we're onli left wif fond memories of him..thk god tat memories neva fades away..at least da memories will be close to our heart forever..n ppl..do pray for him..semoga allah mencucuri rahmat ke atas rohnya..amin..

family portrait in berjaya times square..

outside berjaya times square in KL..;

me n baby's family..

baby n his family..

unwindin in da hotel..

OuR GrAdUaTiOn cHaLEt..

2004-07-29T00:15:00.000-07:00

guess wat peepz..i finally got da pics of my class chalet which was like way back in may tis yr..yeah!! but not much lah..all thx to my digicam which had to cock up at da veri last min..n my frens had to mail me da pics frm their cam..n tat caused all da delay..hehe..but at least u all can savour some pics frm tat chalet..da final one b4 all of us graduate n go many2 different ways..kinda miss them though..n yeah..da chalet definitely brought us much2 closer..i reali got to hang out wif classmates whom i neva reali tok to b4..amazing huh..hehe..n tat was where i learned how to play cards..my veri patient classmates tot me how to play..haha..n i'm hooked..for tat first time i tried..i won like 20 over dollars..tok abt beginner's luck huh..:P well..i'll juz blog till here..cos i reali need to get some beauty sleep..n till i squeeze more time to blog..enjoy da fotos yah..:)

me n zhao..

cailing, shuyan, zhao n me!!

galz of MK0105

in memory of MK 0105

gdbye chalet!!

nEw Hp FoR Me..

2004-07-16T23:16:00.000-07:00

well..i noe i've been un-bloggin for quite some time..but since i've got some time to spare..decided to squeeze in some updates on my "oh-so-happenin" life now..:P todae is exactly 1 wk my bf's father passed away..as usual they hav da "7 hari kenduri"..n me..bein da "good daughter in law"..went over early to help out(like real..haha)..as my baby wasn't home when i reached(he went for a job interview)..i decided to bring his little cuzzins to da playground to kill time..after exhaustin myself chasin after da hyper-active little ones..decided i had enuff n brought them back..n back at baby's place..bein da useless person i am..fell asleep instead of helpin out in da kitchen..haha..but it wasn't intentional cos i was kinda feelin unwell at tat time..serious!!

when baby reached home..he woke his useless sleepin gf up(me lah)..then he called his mummy into da room n they were like talkin in hush tones..i cldn't see wat they were doin cos his mum's back was blockin my view..so decided to remain lyin down..it was then his mummy approached me n gave me a brand new 6610..i was like damn shocked lah..wasn't expectin it at all..then she said tat da old one my late father bought for me..so tis one considered my bf's late father buy for me since use his money..she said he sayang me like his own daughter when he was alive..she felt bad tat my hp was stolen durin his kenduri arwah n replaced it with a new one..exactly da same as my stolen phone..i was soo damn touched when she said those stuffz..nearly cried n i thanked her profusely..cldn't believe how lucky i was n how nice my bf's family are treatin me..n so as da title above goes..yeah..i got a new hp..thx to baby n his mum..:)

but tats not da end yet..cos i still am DAMN BLOODY UNSATISFIED tat da DAMN BLOODY THIEF has not returned my fone..i DEFINITELY dun wan da thief to go away scot free..n for ur info..my baby n his family already went to see a "bomoh" to see who took it..the bomoh said tat my fone has gone out of da house but it is still near da hse..so tat means da thief is a family member who's livin near my baby..n frm there..its kinda obvious who took it..but we can't confront him cos we hav no proof yet..so da bomoh gave my bf some oil to put at da place where i lost my hp n make a "niat"..he said tat if in few days da thief still dun return da fone..he will get "balasan"..he'll suffer for da rest of his life til he return da fone to me..he'll get wateva my baby niat..so da whole family is stil waitin for da thief to show tell-tale signs..such as fallin sick or somethin bad happen..then we can confirm who da thief is..so as for now..we're still hopin for da best..even though i've been replaced wif a new phone..it still feels different..cos tat stolen hp means a lot to me..n frankly..i'd rather hav my old hp than tis new one..n if i reali get back my old hp..i'd return tis new one back to my bf's mummy..cos i feel bad usin their money..so all i can do now is juz hope for da best..i will onli be satisfied once da thief is punished..u juz wait u damn bloody heartless thief!!u'll get wat u deserve!!

mY hP's sToLeN!!!

2004-07-15T21:50:00.000-07:00

aargghhhh!!i'm soo damn pissed!!y am i soo unlucky???well..juz for u guyz to noe..my hp's gone too..cos some heartless n brainless IDIOT stole my hp..n u noe wat makes it worse??my hp was stolen durin my bf's daddy's "kenduri arwah"(somethin like funeral)!!unbelievable rite??juz dun understand how some ppl can stoop soo low!!n its obvious the bloody thief is in da family since onli da family members were there!!ishk..family eat family..dun tat person hav dat little bit of respect n sympathy for my bf's family after the loss of their dad??i bet da person dun even hav a heart!!n it definitely can't be that my hp was taken randomly or by mistake..cos my hp's wallpaper was me n my bf's pic..so its damn bloody obvious its MY HP!!n to make it even tat much worser..tat hp was my one n onli belongin tat reminds me of my late father..since i used da money he left me after he passed away to buy tat fone..so tat hp has damn bloody a lot of meanin to me!!i can get a new hp..but wats da use if da meanin is gone..now i hav nothin left to be reminded of my late father!!i juz realised how cruel ppl can get..even among family members..juz imagine tat bloody thief was in my position..how da hell wld he or she feel??can tat thief bring back my dad to giv me somethin new to remind me of him??its juz soo heartless..no one understands how i feel..i was soo damn torn up when i cldn't find my hp..how cld da hp juz disappear by itself when i left it in my bf's hse..n my fears were confirmed when my bf called da hp n it was OFF!!how da hell cld it be off when i juz fully charged it like few hrs ago!!its soo obvious its stolen since it still can't be found even after searchin da whole hse..i was cryin like mad by then..i felt like i had lost my dad all over again..how cld someone be soo evil to take advantage of tat sad occassion for his or her own gain!!tat is sooo not right!!

my bf n his family regretted tat it happened n were shocked..angry..even disappointed tat tis had to happen few daes after his father passed away..even then..maybe i was careless to leave it lyin ard..but its juz tat i realli trusted da family but i was soo damn wrong!!i feel extremely bad to make my bf's mummy worry even more..after all tat she's goin thru..i reali dun wan to add to her emotional burden..but then they decided to visit a medicine man they knew to find out who dat damn bloody thief was..tat was quite a relief cos i totally can't wait to find out who tat bloody idiot is..n i'll DEFINITELY make sure tat he or she will be so embarrassed to face da family after gettin caught n wun even dare to appear for future family gatherins!!haah!!it may seem evil but the thief is many time more cruel than me..n anywaes..retributions alwaes happen..so thief..u'll get wat u deserve!!but wat is worse is tat my bf n his mum wants to buy me a new fone to make up for my loss..but i definitely dun wan tat..da last thing i wana do is use their money since they might need to use it for other uses since the father is no longer ard..i kept on sayin no to my bf but they kept on insistin..i'll realli feel bad if they did buy me a new one..i dun wana be like a burden to them..creatin problems..cos they went thru enuff pain already..n i shld noe better since i went thru da exact same thing..lost my daddy like 1 yr ago..but i reali duno how to persuade them not to replace my fone..cos they seem reali persistent..haiz..juz hope tat i wld manage to tok them out of it..cos all i wan is to find out who tat damn bloody heartless thief is n maybe..if possible..get my fone back..cos it reali means a lot to me..its not juz any fone..a new fone wun mean da same..but ppl wun understand cos they're not in my shoes..so i'll juz hope n pray for da best..n yeah..i reali miz my dear 6610..feels weird livin without it..haizz..

bAbY's DaDdY WeNt BaCk To gOd..

2004-07-14T00:54:00.000-07:00

sorri ppl for not makin any updates for quite some time..its juz tat things hav been happenin so fast these few daes n its kinda hectic now..my baby's daddy had just passed away on mondae n it all happened soo suddenly..it still seems unbelievable..but i'll elaborate more on it when time permits cos i'll be bz wif all da "kenduris" n stuffz..cos i'm real tired n soo in need of sleep now after tis few daes..but the guilt in me for not bein able make updates for u ppl made me steal some time frm my beauty sleep to clear the air..cos i dun wan ppl to tink tat i'm a lazy blogger..so i promise i'll be back wif more updates..but for now..take care ppl..

qUiCKiE 4 u..

2004-07-05T15:36:00.000-07:00

well..since i've been bz goin in & out of hospital tat i'm barely at home nowadays..i decided to post a quick one durin my "supposed" nap time..hehe..n b4 u guys start jumpin to conclusions..i'm still healthy ol me..da reason i go there is to visit my baby's daddy cos he's been admitted for like a week now..i juz got back frm da hospital actuali..takin a rest first n goin back there in the evenin..n my mummy's comin along since she wans to visit..

i'm soo damn exhausted actuali..slept less than 2 hrs over at baby's yesterdae..cos i FINALLY went clubbin AGAIN after a long break..after tat it was straight to S11 in s'goon to watch da portugal n greece match wif baby n frens..n YES..greece won AGAIN!!ARGGHHHH!!how lucky can they get??my baby was soo PISSED tat he kicked a chair n ended up hurtin his foot..haha..silly baby..n yeah..i irritated baby n frens again wif my brainless n clueless ramblings abt da match..soo sori guys..:P but baby got his revenge cos he carried me n dropped me in those 20-cent cars..ahaha..luckily no one saw except my frens..if not..MALUUU!!!haha..
n as promised i'll keep tis short n sweet..still need to catch forty winks b4 i head to da hospital again later..i'll try to squeeze in more entries soon..but for now..take care peepz..:P

goin clubbin.

eUrO fEvEr!!

2004-07-03T00:46:00.000-07:00

sori for da late updates..been kinda bz lately..so let me juz let u all in on wats been happenin lately..little ol me hav been bz watchin soccer..hehe..can't believe wat u all juz read rite??but as IMPOSSIBLE as it may seem(even to ME!!)..ITS REAL TRUE!!i hav a new found obsession n i juz can't get enuff of it..well..for those who duno yet..soccer n me r 2 worlds apart but tis amazin thing called Euro cup happened n i was all hooked..for da record,i onli started watchin since da quarter finals..hehe..maybe its da cute players(*hint:portugal*) or da thrill of bettin or even da heartbreak of ur fave team losin..but wat matters most is tat now i wun feel like a total idiot when ppl tok bout soccer..

da last match i watched was czech vs greece..in which czech broke my heart by losin to greece..i was soo damn confident tat czech cld win since all da czech matches i bet on hav been bringin in cash..n they had to let me down!!i was on da verge of tears..cos of a soccer match!!unbelievable but true..haizz..da czechs had soo many near goals..if onli they had scored..but da greeks were juz lucky lah..they were lucky when they took on france..n lucky again wif czech..if onli pavel nedved wasn't substituted..if onli milan baros scored..y r they doin tis to ME??AAARRGGGHHH!!i nearly went crazy..

towards da end of da match..i was bz complainin to sujata..who unluckily was on da fone wif me..she had to listen to my brainless n irritatin rattlin on how lousy da czechs were playin..i was cursin anybody n everybody on tv..i stil remembered how da referee looked like gollum frm lord of da rings..ahahaa..botak..sharp ears n big eyes..n how one of da player's head was as oval as an egg..wahaha..too much of headin da ball i guess..:P n da best part of it all was da many2 times sujata had to remind me tat da referee was not da coach..as silly old me kept on referrin to tat botak referee as coach..hahaha..i still got lotz to learn i guess..:P i tink i oso irritated da hell out of my baby..cos i made countless fone calls to him thru out da match..every time they make a move i can complain abt..haha..he muz hav regretted introducin me to soccer..:P but its ok baby..onli 1 more match to go..tolerate a bit more of my naggins n it'll be over soon dearie..n for da record..we lost da bet again..thx to da czechs..:(

but no worries actuali..there's stil da final match tis mondae..where my darlin, christiano ronaldo, will be playin..*winkz* he's soo damn hot..i dun mind watchin any matches wif him..his smile..awww...makes me melt!!i'm definitely rootin for portugal to win..cos i doubt da greeks can be soo lucky all da time..or maybe i might even bet on draw too..last chance to win cash..wahaha..juz hope da match wun be a disappointment or i'd definitely be real MAD!!i noe my darlin ronaldo wun let me down..*winkz* to end tis..i'll leave u wif some pics of my darlin to drool on..:P (check out his HOTT body!!)droolzzz..

p.s: dun worry baby cos i still luv u DA MOST..muakzz..:P

ronaldo darlin.

droolzzzz.

ReSuLTs oF QuIzZeS i ToOk....

2004-07-01T20:49:00.000-07:00

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lUv SiCk....

2004-06-29T13:24:00.000-07:00

hmm..i'm real bored to da core n rather luv sick now..so tot i'd jot down some thoughts for u ppl to savour on..firstly..i'm reali missin my baby now..for ur info..he's away a few daes werkin on a ship..real cool huh..its 24 hr shift everydae..my poor baby muz be real exhausted..but i guess its ok cos da pay's kinda attractive..$190 per dae..WOW!!can't wait for him to return so he can sponsor me a shoppin trip..yeahh!!i'm feelin kinda luv sick now cos for these few daes all i can hear is onli his voice..thk god for free incomin calls we can stil tok to each other everydae..ermm..every hour actuali..hehe..cos i juz can't get enuff of my baby..:P

actuali i'm kinda lucky i guess..i've been in luv like twice in my 20 yrs..cos there are ppl out there who's neva even felt how it's like to be in luv..i muz thk my lucky stars then..duno wat i'd do without luv..kinda sux actuali..makes life real incomplete n unsatisfyin..n i hav to agree tat its kinda hard to "fall in luv" but its easier to "fall in like"..which is real evident in me cos i find it soo hard to luv other guys besides my bf n my first luv..but its real over btw me n my first luv..though it took a real long time..like they sae tat first luv is hard to forget..but i'm glad i managed to move on..n tats where i found my 2nd luv..my baby!!tis DEFINITELY is a more stronger luv..more matured in a way..n i reali hope he's my last..:)

its real amazin how i still get excited whenever i meet him even after more than 3 yrs together..tat fuzzy feelin when we're together..i feel soo complete n satisfied..juz lookin at him puts a smile on my face n i'm real glad we found each other..our 3 yrs 4 mths together are no doubt filled wif plenty of ups n downs, laughter n tears, happiness n pain..n i'm real proud to sae tat we overcame all tat & r stronger than ever..:)maybe those who are in luv or hav been b4 can relate to me..it feels wonderful doesn't it??for those who's neva been in luv..juz be patient..i guess ur time will come too..:) n enuff of me bein all lovey dovey..i'll juz end tis wif a song especially for my baby..luv n miz ya lotz baby..come back soon..:)

= brown eyes - destiny's child =

Remember the first day when I saw your face ||
remember the first day when you smiled at me ||
you stepped to me and you said to me ||
I was the woman you dreamed about ||
remember the first day when you called my house ||
remember the first day when you took me out ||
we had butterflies although we tried to hide ||
and we both had a beautiful night ||

The way we held each others hand ||
the way we talked the way we laughed ||
it felt so good to find true love ||
I knew right then and there you were the one ||

I know that he loves me cause he told me so ||
I know that he loves me cause his feelings show ||
when he stares at me you see that he cares for me ||
you see how he is so deep in love ||
I know that he loves me cause its obvious ||
I know that he loves me cause it's me he trusts ||
and he's missing me if he's not kissing me ||
and when he looks at me his brown eyes tells his soul ||

Remember the first day, the first day we kissed ||
remember the first day we had an argument ||
we apologized and then we compromised ||
and we haven't argued since ||
remember the first day we stopped playing games ||
remember the first day you fell in love with me ||
it felt so good for you to say those words ||
cause I felt the same way too ||

i'm so happy so happy that you're in my life ||
and baby now that you're a part of me ||
you showed me ||
showed me the true meaning of love ||
and i know he loves me ||

valentine's dae 2004.

foolin ard at olio dome.

2004-06-27T10:56:00.000-07:00

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sLeEpOvEr....

2004-06-26T21:47:00.000-07:00

yesterdae we went to eat at west coast market where da food is known to be "power"..juz realised tat most of my outins r bout food..hehe..
can't help it lah..we're food loverz..:P sujata n i had mutton chop while my baby had beef steak kuah..not bad lah i hav to sae but it cld be better if its more spicy..then got ooomph..hehe..n later..wif our bloated bellies..i went back to my baby's place to sleepover..another nite of scrabble n soccer planned..da 1st thing i did there was to fall asleep on da couch while watchin tv..hehe..can't help it..full stomach = sleep..wat a pig rite..:P later we played scrabble on his playstation again n yeah i was leadin most of da time..:) xcept they cheated some times..ishk..

after tat we cldn't resist eatin again cos his mom cooked fish head assam pedas n put aside some for us..haizz..it was POWER but i was kinda preoccupied thinkin of da pounds tat i wld gain..arrgghh!!later when soccer started..we stopped "scrabblin" n concentrated on soccer.. it was france vs greece..my baby n i bet on france..but luck's not on our side since tat stoopid france neva win..aarghh..duno wats wrong wif us cos we keep on bettin on da wrong team..our pockets gettin lighter by da dae..haizz..juz hope tat da next few matches we'll get to earn some cash..wish us luck k ppl..:P

me & my baby.

baby nappin.

MaKaN sEsSiON....

2004-06-23T23:35:00.000-07:00

well..todae i went over to my baby's hse..itz been real long since i actuali hung out there..it was damn fun spendin some quality time wif my baby n his family..his little cuzzin's soo cutee n she even noes how to kol me "kak kin" now..i was real thrilled..:) in the evenin..baby n i met our usual suspects for dinner at serangoon s-11..if ur wonderin who they r..they're my best fren, sujata, n her bf..we alwes dbl-date 2gether n how our bfs get along soo well is rather unexplainable..haha..cos my bf is more to da mat2 type while her bf is more to da cina2 side..we neva expected dem to click soo well but now tat they do..they can even go out 2gether without us which at some point made us tink tat they're gay..haha..

da dinner wasn't satisfyin at all cos da food sucked..not like how it used to be cos the stall owner chged..haizz..we had spring chicken n indian rojak..n after dinner..we hung out n tok cock a while over 2 drinks of slurpee..it was a hell of a time as we laughed til our stomachs hurt..it was amazin how much crap both our bfs cld still come out wif even after all tis yrs dbl-datin..n we oso discussed when we're gona go on holidae 2gether..most prob to genting..maybe in a few mths time when we "feel rich"..:P after tat..my baby n i had a long game of scrabble on his playstation at his hse..AMAZINGLY my baby won..cos he cheated..haha..since i overshot da time for my last bus..my baby suggested i sleep over but i didn't wan to since i didn't bring my stuffz along(make up remover..facial wash..etc..)so i took a cab home instead..n yeah..i reached home halfway thru da soccer matches..n it was da first time i actuali watched one since da euro cup started..(watched cos my baby n i bet on czech n holland)n czech actuali made me 50 dollars richer..YEAHHH!!n tomolo we're gona bet on england..da obvious choice..hehe..i guess i'm hooked now..n wif all tat stayin awake for euro cup..i tink i betta go get some sleep now..tats all for now peepz..

mmmmm.

best frenz.

glenn(sujata's bf) actin cute...

fAtHer'S Dae..mIz mY dAdDy..

2004-06-20T01:24:00.000-07:00

well..i juz realised tat todae is father's dae..haizz..n to begin wif..i dun even hav a daddy to celebrate father's dae wif anymore..its been 2 father's dae since my daddy passed away..n u duno how much it juz sux..i'm soo filled wif regrets tat i neva reali bothered to celebrate father's day for my daddy..mother's dae seemed like a more significant dae to us..but even all those regrets dun make any difference..actualli, NOTHIN can since he's gone far,far away..n he's neva comin back..no one noes how filled wif regrets i am..how devastated i am..how guilty i feel n how much i wish i cld juz turn back da hands of time..ppl see me as though i dun care..can't be bothered..but wat they dun reali noe is tat how much it hurts deep down inside..n somethin my cuzzin said yesterdae made me tink..i was askin her how come she neva miz her dad when he's away for holidae..n she asked me "how come i dun miz my dad when he's neva comin back?"i was kinda stunned..but all i cld come out wif was.."tats a diff case"..tat qn reali caught me off guard..but it made me realise how much ppl are unaware of how i feel..ppl tink tat i couldn't care less..but u noe wat..i reali do hav feelings too..n it reali hurts how much i miz my daddy..noeing tat he can neva eva come back..many2 times i cried alone..hopin tat my dad was still alive..missed havin him ard..

if onli i made da effort to spend some time wif him on his last few days..if onli i wasn't too tired after work n didn't go to sleep when my dad was sick da nite b4 he passed away..if onli i had given him da last popiah tat he wanted to eat n not scolded him for not wakin me up..if onli i had let him watch da channel he wanted..if onli i wasn't too bz werkin so tat i cld buy him tat drink tat he wanted to drink..if onli i wasn't soo rude n defiant to always quarrel wif him..if onli i had treated him nicer..if onli i had spent more time at home wif him instead of alwes goin out..if onli i had celebrated his last bdae for him..n if onli he didn't pass away on my 19th bdae..soo many "if onlis" fill me..but they too, can't bring my daddy back..n no one noes how much it reali SUX to hav him pass away on my 19th bdae..was i such a bad daughter tat he hates me so much??ppl say tat its no good tat ur dad pass away on ur bdae..how does tat make me feel??u tink it feels gd??losin ur dad is a heartbreakin thing but it's even worse tat u lose ur daddy on ur bdae..well..nobody reali understand how i feel..as for me..i learnt how much my family means to me when i lost my dad..but too bad for me..i learnt it da hard way..it reali changed me to be a better n more responsible person..now i reali treasure my mum n siblings..n tats oso da reason y i dun go out much nowadays..cos i'd rather spend time wif my family then go out n waste time..i realised how impt my family is to me n how much i didn't appreciate dem last time..n it reali hurts to da core to hav to lose a family member to make me realise all tis..ppl wun understand cos they're not in my shoes n my feelings are well concealed..so juz for ppl to noe..i felt REAL pain b4..n it hurts REAL bad tat it still hurts now..i guess it'll neva go away..cos without fail..everytime i turn a yr older..it'll be my dad's death anniversary..:(

ps: cldn't control my tears n broke down a few times in da process of writin tis..da wound seems still fresh..haizz..

hari raya 2002.

MuMmY cAmE hOmE!!!!

2004-06-19T11:45:00.000-07:00

my mummy came back frm umrah todae..words can't describe how glad i am..mainly is cos i missed my dear mummy badly..but part of me is oso relieved cos its da end of me havin to do hsework..haha..hsework n me dun reali go well u see..da nite b4..me n my sis had to clean up da whole hse n do all da laundry til like 4 am..how tirin is tat..n we onli had like an hr of sleep since we hav to fetch my mum at da airport at 9 am..haizz..imagine my panda eyes..wahaha..at da airport..my mum was soo happy to see us tat she cried tears of joy..hehe..n after tat..my uncle drove us over to my baby's hse to collect da food for our mini family gatherin todae..cos my baby's mummy helped us cook for todae..bein da helpful person she is..:) after reachin home..we had to go out again cos my mum accidentally xchanged one of her luggages wif my aunt's mum..haizz..n after my family came over..we feasted on the roti kirai,mutton curry n kuih baulu tat my baby's mummy made..some of my family members liked da kuih baulu soo much tat they wana order for hari raya frm my baby's mummy..cool huh..n not forgettin comments tat her cooking was delicious..hehe..my mummy oso bought lotz of souvenirs frm her trip..n lots of food too..mmm...but da best of all..she bought my fave.."tahi unta" which is actually a type of sweet wif nuts frm mekkah..which tastes like nougat..n tokin abt it now..makes my mouth water..guess i wanna go savour them now..hehe...tataaa...

mummy & me on mother's dae'04.

BAbY cAmE oVeR agAiN!!

2004-06-17T22:15:00.000-07:00

well..frm da title..its obvious tat my baby came over again..n for the record..he came over for 3 daes straight..wow..if onli tis cld go on everydae..i'd be da happiest girl alive..hehe..he neva fails to faithfully bring food for me everydae..wat a sweetie rite..n da sweetest thing is tat his mummy specially cooked for me my fave dish which is snails(siput)..all thx to his sis who told her tat i wanted to eat snails..she's da best "mother-in-law" ever!!she even told me not to cook rice cos she said tat my rice wld turn out hard like da first dae i cooked..haha..i'm soo not cut out for tis cookin thing..n my family seems to luv her cookin cos its soo "power"..i wun be surprised if i gain weight tis few daes..haha..my baby n i even fell asleep 2gether while watchin tv..but me on da bed while he on da chair lah..haha..switt huh..n thx to my baby..tis few 3 daes were real fun for me since i spent it wif him..:)

mama n papa.

pa lookin irritated cos took too many fotos..hehe..

BaBy CaMe OvEr....

2004-06-15T10:13:00.000-07:00

my baby came over to my hse todae..brought some food for me n my sis to eat since we're still home alone..it was real swit for his mummy to cook specially for us within such a short notice..cos she started cookin onli when she found out he's comin over here..am i lucky or wat to hav such an amazin future mother in law..hehe..i reali appreciate wat she's doin..:) well..she cooked assam pedas n veges..n oso some sweet soup for dessert..it was finger lickin gd!!anywes..after tat we went jalan2 at junction 8..introduced him to ya kun kaya toast..we had the horlicks peng n cheesy french toast..he totally fell in luv wif them n started makin plans of goin there again to eat..hehe..we oso did some shoppin for groceries AGAIN..seems like my hse keeps on runnin out of stuffz..haizz..n as usual..here's some pics of us at my hse..:)

mama n papa.

mama n papa II.

AdVeNtUrE iN aMk..(yEaH RiTe..)

2004-06-14T01:14:00.000-07:00

today is da 2nd dae of our so-called slumber party..though we haven reali had da chance to realli sleep da whole nite,we decided to do a little bit of shoppin in amk central since our legs were itchin to go out..hehe..we bought quite a lot of stuffz..daily neccesities, groceries n stuffz..recommended my cuzzin,juli,some new shampoo which i hav been usin..brought them to eat da mouth waterin choc ice kachang..bought more groceries n snacks to stock up our supply for survival sake since we are home alone til my mum's back frm umrah(we cleared all our existing food supply durin da sleepover..hehe)its juz soo amazing how cheap stuffz are down in amk..i was soo tempted to buy almost everythin..haha..but da main thing tat i was eyeing to buy was left out..which was DURIANS..hehe..i soo am havin a cravin for those thorny fruits..but unfortunately..da stall where we alwes buy the "power durians" frm was closed..haizz..but no worries though..cos my baby said tat if he's not tired tomolo..he's gona come over n bring some durians for me..yeahhh!!ain't my baby swit??:p n since we took along the handy digicam..here's a few pics for u guyz to check out..enjoy..

me & juli in da bus.

acting cute..haha.

back view.

some stuffz we bought.

finally...

2004-06-13T11:01:00.000-07:00

heya ppl..first of all..i finally managed to get my blog up & runnin..n tis is all thx to my dear sista(who did 90% of the werk for me)..since i'm not called a "computer idiot" for nothin..hehe..thx sis..u deserve ALL da credit..but ermmm..on 2nd thoughts..MOST lah..since i shld get some credits for stayin up til mornin tryin to figure tis blog thingy out..:P my eyes r dead tired now..i'm totally exhausted..didn't reali sleep da entire nite til now cos there's a slumber party in progress at my hse(actuali juz my cuzzins sleepin over my hse onli lah..but prefer to sound more glamorous..haha)..n i'll tok more bout da slumber party after i get my well deserved rest k..reali need to recharge my batteries..hehe..so i better get of tis soon..my bed is callin..gotta get my beauty sleep now..cya guys in dreamland then..zzzzzz...

mUmMy Go uMrAh...

2004-06-08T20:18:00.000-07:00

well..juz sent my mummy off to da airport todae..she's goin off to umrah..will be back onli in 12 daes..haizz..not even 1 dae n i miz my mummy already..hope 12 daes pass soon..was kinda sad seeing her go without us..even cried a few times..i'm juz emotional n too attached to her i guess..my baby oso came wif his parents to send my mummy off..his daddy even took leave..real swit of dem..soo now..left me n my siblings to fend for ourselves..haizz..forced independence..n da start of me doin housework..aarghhh!!nitemare..will update u ppl on how i'm copin wif hsework..haha..

me n my baby.

me,sis & mummy.

family foto.

cuzzins.

my mummy-in-law wif our child(yeah rite..:P), my baby & me.

goin home..